Always & Forever (Dan Howell X Reader)

The Talk

Y/N POV

I went into dan's room he seemed to be crying "Dan what's wrong?" I said sitting next to him on the bed. I rubbed his back supportively. "You know Phil told me what you said" I said nervously. "He did, did he?" He sniffled. "Yeah but you are in a bit of a state, otherwise I would kiss you" I laughed. "You would!" He said suprised. "Oh yeah course" I said staring into his eyes. "That's not the only reason I'm upset, I just found out my nan has passed away" he replied. "Oh my god" I said putting my hand over my mouth and giving Dan a big warm hug. He started to cry. "Awh don't cry Dan!" I said almost crying myself. I felt horrible for him I know how hard it is to lose someone you love... "I-I'm just r-really go-gonna miss her" he stuttered. "I know Dan we'll get through it" I said. "We'll?"he said confused. "Yep us together" I said holding his hand. He clutched my hand tight like I was going to go away for ever.

"Y/N I-I" Dan stuttered. "Shh" I said. "Right then Dan what do you want to do?" I said pulling away from the hug. "Kill myself" he said. "No Dan please don't I couldn't handle myself when-" I stopped and gave him a hug. I was full on crying now. (I'm listening to wake me up when September ends right now so it makes this a lot more emotional that it should tbh) "Why did you stop?" He said. "Uh-I-um that's a story for another time" I stuttered. "So, do you wanna watch a film or something?" I said wiping the tears from my eyes. "Yeah please I'll go get a film" Dan said getting up. I put my hand on his collar bones and pushed him down on the bed "let me" I said. "What film?" I asked. "I'm feeling like an action film tonight" he exclaimed. "Transformers ok?" I asked. "Oh my gosh yeah, I forgot I even had that!" Dan said cheerily. I put the disc in the tv, sat on the bed and watched it with Dan. He seemed to be a lot happier now. 

Dan's POV

She was so amazing and supportive when I was upset. Like she really did care about a stupid, worthless piece of shit. When she started crying, I felt like kissing her so bad, and when she said she would've if I wasn't in a state. I felt a million tiny butterflies in my stomach. Wait it all makes sense she really does like'like me. Otherwise why would she say she would kiss me. Wait I have it all wrong it was just to make me feel better because she knows how I feel about her now, that makes a lot more sense. "Y/N I'm going downstairs" I said. "can you come with me?" I added. "Sure Dan" she said turning the TV off and walking downstairs with me. Phil ran up to us "Hey how are you" He said. "I'm amazing thanks to Y/N" I said giving her a hug. "Awh" She said hugging me back. "We are all playing a big you tuber truth game" Phil said. "Wanna join you guys?" Phil added. Y/N looked up at me "sure Phil" I said

We sat down and then I said "you know I'm gonna pass on this one" I said to her. "Do you want me to come with you?" She asked. "No you have a good time" I said standing in the door way I was going to watch them play from there. Y/N said hello to a lot of her friends. But one caught my eye. "SHANE!" She shouted running to him. "Y/N oh my god I missed you so much" He shouted giving her a hug and swinging her round. I felt jealous.

Y/N POV

"I missed you so much too" I said while he put me down. Phil was setting up the TV so he could record on that,  so everyone was in shot. "Guys come on sit down" Phil said. I sat down next to Shane. "Hi guys" everyone shouted when Phil hit record. We got on with the game. "Right who has a Crush on someone in this room?" Phil asked. Well technically Dan was in this room now because he moved in the corner. Me  and Shane  raised out hands simeaultanously. We laughed so hard. Trin and Phil had also raised their hands. "Hey Trin and Phil both have a crush on eachother" I whispered in Shane's ear trying not to giggle. "Oh my god really?!" Shane shouted. "Oops sorry" he said quitely. I laughed and put my head in his lap he looked down and laughed. I got up and looked at Dan he seemed to be not himself. If anything I'd say he was jealous. I waved at him. He came and sat down and raised his hand."ooh Dan has joined us" Phil said. "And his hand is up woohoo" Phil added.

I looked at Dan, he looked at me smiling. I smiled back. "Awh you'd be so cute together!" Shane exclaimed looking at me and Dan. "Thanks Shane" Dan said gratefully. I felt myself blush. "Awh she's blushing" Shane teased. "Shutup" I said playfully. "Raise your hand if you have ever had a love cuddle with someone in this room" Phil said. "Do you count the London eye moment as a love cuddle?" Dan whispered in my ear. I raised my hand, Dan raised his too. Me and Dan were the only ones that raised our hands so it was obvious are love cuddle was with eachother.  Just then Trin got up and hugged Phil, he hugged her back warmly they both raised their hand. "Awhhhh" everyone exclaimed. We played for like 20 minutes it was so much fun. When we had finished. I invited Zoe,Trin, Louise and Jessie to stay. Jessie had to go back because of family issues and Louise had to go home to Darcy because she left her with a babysitter.

So Zoe and trinity went home to get their things. Phil said it was wonderful me having them around for the night. I think he just said that because he gets to spend more time with Trin. Which I thought was so cute, when they got back Trin went to Phil's room to watch a movie with him. We left them alone for a few minutes, but then we couldnt resist. We heard kissing noises from inside, Dan opened the door a little he peaked his head through "Y/N they're making out" Dan whispered. I peaked my head through they were making out "get some Trin" I said loudly. "Y/N!" Trinity exclaimed. "Get some Philly" Dan said, we walked off laughing. We went to Zoe downstairs, she was on the phone. So we decided to go in the kitchen out of the way.

"Who do you think she's talking to?" Dan said. "None of our business Dan" I said laughing. We were silent for a moment staring into each other's eyes. We both came closer together are lips were about to touch when the door opened. Zoe was looking at her phone so she didn't noticed that we were almost kissing  so we inched back from each other. She looked up and said "I'm gonna go put my stuff in your room Hun" "yeah okay" I said. The whole time Trinity And Phil were stood in the doorway. Considering Dan was facing me he didn't notice why I was smiling at the door. He turned around "Phil!" Dan shouted. "How long were you stood there?" Dan asked embarrassed. "Since you got in the kitchen" Phil said. Trin started making kissy noises. "Trin!" I shouted.

I smiled at Dan and went upstairs with Trinity. "Hey Zoe did you know when you walked in to the kitchen you stopped Y/N and Dan kissing" Trin blurted out. Zoe looked at me "oh my gosh sorry y/n" she said guiltily. "Nah nah it's fine" I said. I was a little sad I didn't get to kiss Dan but there would be other chances. There was a knock on the door you opened it it was Dan. You walked out and shut the door. "Yeah?" I asked. He put his hands on my waist. "Goodnight" he said. "Nighty Night" I said laughing. He almost went into his room when I ran after him span him around and kissed him softly. He kissed me back and he grabbed my waist pulling me closer to him. I put my arms around his neck. I pulled away "Goodnight Dan" I said walking to my room.