THE UNREQUITED

The unrequited story

"THE FEELINGS THAT I FELT BETWEEN 20 AND 21 AGE IS MEMORABLE IN MY LIFE.THEY SHOULD BE CAPTURED IN WORDS NOT IN MY MIND. SO,I DECIDED TO WRITE HOW MY THOUGHTS CROSS MY MIND.MAYBE,SOMEDAY I WILL PASS THIS AGE BUT THESE SHOULD BE TREASURED EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE UNREQUITED. "

The night before August 25 2017,My cousin told me,She didn't know whether I can see what I want but just remember it was for the last time I will watch and forgot about the moment.I agreed with her.But hack my mind never agreed with me.

On 25 August I saw him for the 1st and last time.He that boy, smile brightly like that Disney mickey mouse.He's got gorgeous eyes.He was shining  like a yellow Moon on that stage.He's cute but there was still manliness in his character. He was like that anime character I imagine.

The way he laughs makes me smile.
The way he talks gives me butterflies in stomach.
And everything about him,made me happy that day.

That day I never thought for a moment he will come.The day before I heared he went to his hometown.So,whether he come or not I decided to go to the department function with my cousin as I promised her.She knew my motives but still agreed to take me with her.
As I went there sit with her at the last part of the auditorium,trying to enjoy the function,thinking maybe it isn't that bad I shouldn't see what I m desiring that moment I frozed for a second.He passed by me wearing that violet panjaabi carrying a school bag on one side of his shoulder.I shouted in a low voice to my cousin is it he?? She saw and said it was HIM.How could I recognize him as he wasn't showing his face only his back side was visible. I told her actually I remember his back side profile only on 18 November 2016 the day I saw his back side only.She was amazed and mocked me.THAT MOMENT I TRUELY BELIEVED BUTTERFLIES IN STOMACH PHARASE ACTUALLY EXIST.BUT NOT IN REAL BUT BY ONE'S EMOTIONAL FEELINGS.
He was actually more visible in real.I only saw him in picture. Though I saw him from a far distance AS HE WAS THE STAR FAR APART FROM ME.
IT WAS UNFAIR,I ONLY DECIDED TO PICK SOME GLANCES,BUT HE DECIDED TO STOLE MY HEART.That day,I thought to stop my infatuation but my stupid heart went totally opposite direction.
He passed by me quite often.My cousin thought I took the seat of auditorium passway intentionally to observe him,while it was marely a coincidence.I even heared his voice.It was pure deep.His soothing smile followed by the gorgeous jawline. He captivated me with his everything like a firework show.

I came back home that night with a broken heart.Maybe I should stop.He will never notice.So,I stopped stalking him in fb.But my mind and heart never stop.So,I decided I should be get hurt intentionally enough to stop my mind to think about him.So,I send him request.I knew HE WILL HANGED ME IN LIST.As my negative intuation never failed it became also true
He hanged me there.My mind stopped there.But my heart never listen. Still everynight for a moment of second HE CROSS MY MIND.HE IS LIKE THOSE WISHES WHICH WILL NEVER BE TRUE.I CAN STUDY HARD TO GET AN ABOARD SCHOLARSHIP. I CAN EARN A LOT OF MONEY BY HARDWORK.BUT NOT THAT ONE WISH WHICH WILL NEVER COME TRUE WITHOUT MIRACLE.But I want to try.Until my heart forget him.I know this is just a strong infatuation.But I don't want to regret later.I will let it go after this year pass.

My mind flactuate after some months of his request hanging.But NOTHING IS STRONG ENOUGH TO FEEL THOSE BUTTERFLIES STOMATCH EMOTION OF 25 AUGUST.
My 20th birthday was on 26 August 2017.The worst birthday of my life.
As for me HE IS LIKE ONE OF MY THOSE LOST PROJECTS.
THAT DAY MY OWN MADE CUPID ARROWS STRUCK  ME.