I sat in the car outside of my doctors office. One leg on the dash, other on the floor. I fixed my red knit beanie as i wait for Josh.
I've been sick for a while, and my doctor wanted to meet with just Josh today.
He comes out, bags underneath his eyes blue, hair a mess.
"What'd he say?" i ask, not really wanting to hear the answer
"You only have 3 months to live, y/n"
"I.. i what?"
"Only three more months"
"no! that can't be"
"You have a sickness that they've never seen, and it's in a stage where it's too late to save it."
"Can we go home?"
"Yes, but the doctor says you can stay at home until you start feeling week, then you can come here to stay"
"Okay.." i say
We get home, and walk in hand in hand.
All my friends and family are here.
"Josh told us, y/n" Zoe says
"You'll come visit me in the hospital when i go right?"
"Of course love" Jack says
I stay home for the next month. It's gotten so hard to get out of bed. Josh has to carry me pretty much everywhere because my bones are too fragile. I've lost at least 100 pounds.
"Josh?"
"Yes love?"
"i want to go stay at the hospital."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, Joshua i'm sure, i can't move, i can hardly eat. i'm ready"
"i'll call the doctor" he says, tears streaming down his face.
"Before we go can i have one last bath here?"
"o-Of course."
He draws me one, and helps me into it
"Will you join me?"
"Yes of course"
it was silent. Besides one of us crying every now and again.
"Josh?"
"Yes dear?"
"I want to be buried in the dress you bought me"
"Really?"
"Yes, it's my favorite one."
"Okay, but let's not think about that right now"
"Joshua, face it. i'm pretty much dead already"
"Y/n.."
"No Joshua stop it! i can't do this anymore."
"Come on let's go"
He helps me get dressed and put my beanie on me.
"Ready?"
"Ready."
He gently places me into the wheelchair and pushes me to the car.
"Thank you Josh" i say as he places me into the car
"No problem my dear"
We get to the hospital and are escorted to my room
"Now, miss. Y/l/n, would you like to start writing a will? and what you would like to be done after your death?"
"Yes please."
"Joshua Pieters will get everything besides my
makeup, Zoë Sugg gets that
Tanya Burr Chapman gets my makeup vanity
Conor Maynard gets my records."
"And what would you like your burial to be?"
"I want an open casket. I want to be buried in my favorite dress, Josh knows what it is. I want Zoe to do my makeup and Tanya and Louise to work on my outfit."
"Is that all?"
"Id like Conor Maynard to sing, and maybe my friends make a speech?"
"Like who?"
"Josh, Caspar, Joe, Jack, Mikey and Oli"
"Alright, is that all?"
"Yes sir."
The next month went by slowly.
Josh never left my side.
I know i'm about to die, my three months is almost up.
12 more hours.
"Josh? can you get me water?"
"Yes dear" he says
He comes back and sits down with me.
"The gang is coming over today. All of them"
"really?"
"Yes, love"
The gang gets here about 6 hours later.
They're all standing by bed, Tanya holding my left hand and Joshua my right.
i was in the middle of saying something when i went quiet.
Joshua's pov:
"Y/n? Y/n! wake up"
"Time of death: 10:30 Pm, Monday, January 3rd" the nurse says
"No, she has to be alive there has to be a person in there somewhere" i pled
"I'm sorry sir."
I fell the ground, screaming.
"She's only 22! she's too young"
Caspar and Jack met me on the ground and lightly wrapped their arms around me.
"Let's get going Josh" Mikey says
They help me up, and walk me to the car.
"I need to be left alone, please don't come in with me"
2 years later.
Tanya's POV:
It's been two years since i've lost my best friend. Josh killed himself the same night y/n died. He said he had no reason to live if she wasn't with him.
They had a shared funeral, and are buried right next to each other.
We all decided to go visit them today.
"Hey y/n, hi Josh" I say to the graves
"My record came out this year, it had that vocal track you were working on" Conor says
"We had a kida boy. we named it Josh" Zoe says
"And we had a girl, and we named her y/n"
"I'm finally getting my big break as an actor" Jack says
"I made my merch an official line" Oli adds.
Mikey and Joe are silent.
"You would've been 24 today, y/n" Mikey whispers.
I cling to Jim as everyone starts to cry.
"Would you like a moment alone, Tan?"
"Yeah, but Caspar can stay, josh was his best friend after all."
The rest leave, and Caspar joins me.
"Gone too soon." i whisper.
"You're right, two angels gone from earth way before their time."
"Let's get going, i know they're happy we came"
Right when i said that, the dark grey sky turned into a bright sunny one
"Looks like they are watching us" Zoe says as we get into the car
"Looks like it" i say, smiling.
