Our Story

Falling in love.

A few days passed and I was still unsure of what to do. But I was proud. Proud of myself to admit that I had feelings for him.

In those days, I lost focus of everything. I had to figure out what to do. But every time I thought about it, something would make my stomach turn.

The fear of breaking apart.

That's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of getting in a relationship with this person to find out we weren't a perfect match. Thinking about it made me sick to my stomach. But there was nothing else I could do to get my mind off of it.

I would usually get excited before the bell rang, but those days were different. I was wishing I had more time. More time to figure out my next move. Slapping my forehead, I told myself I should of thought of it before I opened my big mouth. But it was too late.

Time passed and I received a message. The screen read 'Alex ☺️❣️'. My heart beat got faster but this time, I was scared. I was scared to open the message even if it was just to tell me he was out of school.

'I wasn't given enough time.' 'I need more time to think.' I kept telling myself that to ignore the fact that no matter what could go wrong, I really wanted to be with this person. But I knew that I needed more time to think. About everything.

Suddenly my eyes opened to the sound of my phone vibrating. With His name on the screen. My palms started getting sweaty and a million thoughts were running through my mind. But I answered it either way.

A few minutes into the call, I had a thought that I'd love to say aloud. Everything was perfect and quiet. Without realizing it at first, I actually said it aloud.

'Will you go out with me?'

My heart was racing and my hands were getting clammy. Did I really just say that? I couldn't control what I was saying. I'm so stupid.

'Wait are you serious?'

By the tone of his voice, he was surprised. Believe me, I was too. I needed a second for my brain to connect with my mouth but instead I spit out the word 'yes'.

'I've never been so excited and happy about a girlfriend before.' The way he said it gave me butterflies. My mind was working in a million different ways. For a few seconds, I forgot about the anxiety I was having and focused on what I was actually feeling. Happiness. I did it. Without even knowing I did but I did it. I asked him out.