The Do Over

The night it all came back

It's been a year today since I last saw his face, heard his voice, felt his arms around me and it still hurts to think about him. Everyone thinks I'm okay that I'm better and that's what I want them to think because if they really knew they'd all call me an idiot.
*Flashback*
"Mason could you bring me my purse please? I think I left my keys in there"
All of a sudden I feel two arms wrap around me and feel a kiss on my cheek
"No dork they are on the kitchen table"
I smile to myself and turn to face him, I've always loved his bright green eyes. I get on my tiptoes and give him a small kiss
"What would I do without you?"
"Never know where anything is, come on your parents are waiting for us"
*end flashback*
I hate remembering little things like that, I hate that he still has a hold on me ... but none the less my day must move forward even if I don't want it to. I have work tonight and it's a Friday so I already know it's going to be slammed... everyone thinks it's weird that I sing for a living but there's something about singing for strange men that really gives me a kick to better myself. I put on my black skinny jeans and my maroon crop top as I look in the mirror I study my body and all the new piercings I've gotten over the year my favorite being my belly button. I've changed so much over this period of my life I hardly recognize myself... that's what heartbreak does I guess. I've had a bad feeling about today all day and I really just don't want to go to work.
"SERENITY HURRY UP WE'LL BE LATE!"
My roommate Chyanne who also happens to be the only friend I have yells from our living room
"I'm coming!"
"How are you holding up? I know today is a rough one" she looks at me with concern in her eyes. I know better then to try and lie to her, she knows me to well
"I'm doing as well as you'd think" she just gives me a weak smile as we leave the apartment.  Chyanne is the bartender at the club I sing at I met her a week after Mason left me I went into the bar crying and she dragged me on the stage for karaoke night and that's also the night I got my job.
"You'll be okay sweetheart, everyone adores you and as always you look smokin"
"I can't shake the feeling that something is going to happen tonight "
"Maybe you'll finally get laid" she laughs and shrugs
"But seriously just try to have fun tonight okay? You love Karaoke night you don't have to do all the singing " I laugh and give my friend a hug
"You're right what could go wrong I'm being overly dramatic" we walk into the club and clock in it's just barely 10:00 and the place is already filled karaoke night is always our busiest, I get on stage to announce the first song and as soon as I look up a group of guys walk in and at the very back of this group I see a 6'" blond hair green eyed Mason and I froze.
.... this is not happening.

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