50 Shades Without You

Chapter 39

Ella's P.O.V

I wake up in Shawn's arms as Olivia cries. I quickly get up and takes her down to the kitchen. I set her up in her seat and get this weird mashed mango pear shit out. "Hey, goodmorning" Shawn smiles. "Morning" I look up at him as I open the little jar. "I'll feed her if you want, so you can do whatever" He sits down in front of Liv.

"I was just gonna make some coffee. Thanks" I smile and turn around. The big t-shirt may or may not have been Jack's and may have swung around my knees. I start making coffee when there is a knock then the opening and closing of doors. "Hey, Ell. Sorry to show up un- hi Shawn" Jack walks in. He glances at Shawn then to me then back to Shawn then to Liv. "I can feed my kid" Jack takes the tiny spoon from Shawn. "Please, do" Shawn gets up and walks over to me.

"I'll see you soon" He hugs me and I gladly embrace him. "Soon" I nod and Shawn runs upstairs, grabs his stuff, and is off with a wave. Jack looks over at me, setting the spoon down as he turns. "I said talk to him! Not have sex!" Jack growls. "Can you calm down. We didn't do anything" I huff as the coffee brews. "Then why was he shirtless in your kitchen? He just always walks in half naked?" Jack stands up, making me back up a little. 

"Jack, he stayed here last night. And I did talk to him, he completely understood. We're still friends" I walks past him and sit down, feeding Liv. "So nothing happened.. sexually?" He said as he let his shoulders fall. "No" I roll my eyes. "Shit, I'm sorry for getting mad" He nervously slinks against the counter. "Yeah" I say passive agressively. "I didn't really know what to say to Claire this morning.. I told her I loved her. I told her I found out about her cheating on me" Jack says. 

"What? She cheated on you?" I turn my head to him. Liv tilts her head at him and he smiles. She squeals and kicks her legs. My reaction too, Liv. "Well, I didn't think she did. It was just an excuse at first" He says. "But when I said it she broke down in tears, apologizing, saying it was just to get a magazine cover" He chuckled a little. "God damn" I raise my eyebrows in shock. "Want a cookie or something?" I smile. "I'm sorry Ella." He sighs. "Can you change Liv while I get dressed?" I ask, changing the subject. 

I go into my closet, shuffling through clothes. "You stink!" I hear Jack exclaim and I laugh to myself. "Hey, I hear you laughing" He comments. I slide on a pair of light wash jeans, a light pink, cropped, tee, and put my hair half up. "This is definitley my kid, watch" Jack says happily. He sings a bit from his new song and Liv smiles. "She's gonna be an artist, I just know it" Jack smiles at her, sitting up on his lap. She made a gurgling sound.

"You look cute" He looks me up and down. "Thanks" I nod. We sit down at the table with some coffee. "What do we do now?" I ask, watching Liv squirm around, trying to crawl. "We.. we work on us. And take care of Liv. You can move into my place again.. I still have all of your things" Jack says. "You do" My eyes light up. "Yeah, you were technically my wife" He chuckles. "Aren't I still- legally- your wife?" 

"Um, no not really" He mumbles. "I never signed the papers though, and I'm alive." I sip my coffee and tilt my head. "I might have forged your signature.." Jack mumbles. "Jack" I groan. "Save that for later, let's start packing your stuff." Jack stands up. "What if I don't want to move back in" I cross my arms. "Ell" Jack looks at me like 'are we really gonna do this'. I look at him like 'bitch, yes we are'. 

"Don't make me beg" He huffs. (AYAHHHEHHAHA). "What if we went half on a house?" I suggest. "No way. I love my house. It has all my tunnels" He points out. "Fair.." I nod and pick up Liv. Jack had done a lot of work on his house. It looked a lot different then it used to. New floors and colors and stuff. "Why did you change your house so much?" I ask as we pack up some of my belongings. 

"Honestly, too much had happened in that house. I felt like if it looked different I'd feel differently there" He shrugged and looked up at me. Liv wiggled around in my lap. "Did it work?" I ask, not losing eye contact with him. "Sort of, at first" He looked back down at the box. "And then?" I keep looking at him. "It still didn't feel.. right? You know? It felt like I was living in someone elses house" He said, still looking down. "Jack" I said softly, laying Liv down on a pile of clothes. He looks up. "I'm here now. We're here now. I love you." I said, reaching my hand out.