"Good, she can never find out that I'm carrying your child. I need this child to stay Niall's so I can end up being with him, this baby is my only hope."
Well this plan just got blown to pieces.
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What the hell? WHAT the hell. WHAT THE HELL.
The baby isn't Niall's? This is going to devastate him! Do I tell him now? What do I do? Do I go back to my apartment and tell my mom?
Even worse, the baby is Caiden's. Dammit! After we were making so much progress, but it all makes sense now. He needed to get on my good side so I wouldn't suspect anything. "Dammit!" I yelled out loud and covered my mouth, realizing Kiana and Caiden were probably still around the corner, my only option was to run inside the guys' dorms and run upstairs, so I did.
I ran as fast as I could and in front of Niall's door, knocking hard and fast. I just hoped Caiden wouldn't walk up those stairs withtin the next few minutes and see me in complete shock. To my surprise, Niall opened the door immediately but closed it once he realized who it was, almost as a reflex. "Niall please! I need to talk to you!"
"Go away Kylie! I don't want to talk to you." His voice was firm and unrelentless.
"Niall I swear to God open the door you need to hear this!"
"No more lies Kylie! Please just leave!" He wasn't far from the door, his voice was just on the other side.
This wasn't working, he wouldn't let me in if I didn't say this. "Niall, please." This wasn't working, I needed to drop the bomb right here in this damn hallway. "The baby isn't yours."
The door opened in seconds, well that worked. "What the hell did you just say to me?"
"Niall, the baby Kiana is carrying isn't yours, it's-"
"Enough! Dammit Kylie don't you get tired of telling lie after lie?"
"Niall, please I-"
"You what Kylie? Are you sorry for telling your damn lies? Tired of being the stupid slut that you are?"
My breath caught at the word slut. How could he call me something that pushed me over the egde nearly two years ago? "Niall how could you say that to me? I'm your best-"
"No! Get the hell out, why don't you go fuck your little boy toy, Caiden, I'm sure he'll be happy. Leave me alone." The door was slammed in my face and I was left in the middle of the dorm hallway, in tears with every guy that lived in there just staring at me. I was humiliated by who I thought was my best friend.
My best friend has abandoned for a baby that isn't even his, and a lying slutty bitch.
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My life was over, so many things have happened to me, error after error in my life have occurred and i'm so sick of it.
I opened my apartment door and closed it softly behind me, tears still clouding my vision.
"Hey honey how did it go?" I forgot my mom was here, she was back and I totally forgot.
"Mom, I-" I couldn't even finish the sentence before I broke down again. "He didn't believe me, He called me a slut."
"Oh honey I am so sorry!" My mother's arms embraced me in a tight hug, rocking back and forth. My head was planted on her shoulder with my arms just laying above her hips. "Wait, he didn't believe you about what?"
"Mom, the baby isn't Niall's."
"Kylie, what are you talking about? Who's the father of the baby then?" My mom was almost apalled at what I had said, her eyes were staring back into mine in shock.
"Caiden, he's the father of Kiana's baby."
"Caiden?! After all he's done to you, he goes and pulls this?"
"Yeah mom, look I love you and I'm so happy you're back but I need some time and space to think about every thing."
"I understand, take your time, have your space, I can leave."
"Thank you mom, I'll call you tomorrow, call me if you need anything." Just as she went to turn around I grabbed her arm and squeezed. "Mom, I love you...more than anything."
"I love you too baby girl." We shared one last smile before she left.
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****WARNING: SELF HARM****
The cold object gliding across my skin felt blissful .The metal piercing my skin was the only thing that could take my pain away, I wasn't as strong as I thought. I told myself over and over again that I was, that I could overcome this overwhelming urge of need and want. As the hours passed my strength deteriorated as I thought longer and harder of my life. How my life was slowly going down and I didn't know how to stop the constant pain that was coming into my life.
With every slash across my skin another ounce of pain left. It didn't hurt, it took the pain away. My thoughts were elsewhere. Cut after cut, second after second, minute after minute. The time ticked by quicker than my mind could process my own thoughts.
What would I do now? What could I possibly do to get Niall to believe me?
Every time my mind went back to Niall I started crying again, more tears flowed with every thought. More tears flowed with every cut. I knew what I was doing. I knew what was going on and what was happening but I ignored every warning my heart tried giving me. I need this, I thought to myself. I needed the pain to go away.
I needed Niall to go away. Just for this time.
I needed to find myself.
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GUYS! I am so super sorry this is so super short! It isn't even 1000 words I've just been so busy, things are going on right now to the point where I'm out more than I'm home. I literally just wrote this chapter in 30 minutes, I;ll try making the next chapter longer and more interesting, please keep reading and bare with me, the drama is just starting to unfold.
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Have Faith ((Niall Horan-AU)) (Editing)
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