^January 21, 23 days left^
The day started again like always. Boring and sad. I can't do this anymore', I say it to myself while I went downstairs to the kitchen. Here we go again. My sister was there and looked at me with her: don't-talk-with-me face. I hate my life.
"Mama, Mama, Mama, Mama.." my little brother yelled. I hate it when he does it. Like wtf we can hear you.
It's 07:45 am and I need to go to school. I have friends, yes but they don't understand me. I mean I love them but it's hard to talk with them about specific things.. like I tell them 'Guys I want to die' and they're laughing and saying 'Yeah same'. They think it's just a joke but I don't think so.
I thought a long time about this decision and I wanna kill myself. I know, you'll think I'm stupid or I'm selfish but honestly I don't care. Their lives will be better without me, for sure.
But I'm scared. I wanna have a short death. It should not hurt. And I don't want to be saved when I do it. So I went to a site for suicide partners. At first I thought it's stupid and I don't need one. I read a few profiles and wrote someone. I want someone who has no kids. That would be to hard for me.
*1 new message*
'Hey, I really hope you are serious about this. We should meet and talk where we are doing it. But it needs to be on the 13rd February.
- Sam '
Wow, he told me his real name. He must be serious. I wrote him back
"Yeah I'm really serious. I mean it would be really nice if we meet before. We could meet tomorrow at 5 pm by the old ice cream store
- (Y/N)'
Yes we will meet tomorrow. But now I need to go to school.
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suicide partners
FanfictionMy name is (Y/N) and I'm 16 years old. This is my story.. specific my story about my suicide plan and the boy who wants to do it with me.
