My Life and My End

My Plan to End my Suffering

Tomorrow I will end my suffering. But today was just weird. I mean today was a no school day. So I thought that I would spend the whole day at my willow tree. Then I see Alex there and the creepiest thing he said that started our conversation is " I thought I'd find you here." And we hadn't even known each other for less than a week. But I have to admit it was good to have some company at the moment.

" I thought I'd find you here," He said.

" Shouldn't you be with your mate, Macie 'the god wolf', or is it true you just won't accept it yet?" I asked.
" But I am with my mate. I know that those rumors about you are lies of Macie." He told me. " I know Macie because she and I were childhood friends. And I know she would do anything to keep people she thought were losers away from me." He explained to me.
" I know you will never accept me as your mate," I said trying to hold back my tears.
" How are you sure about that?" He asked curiously.
" I just know nobody, not even my potential mate, will never accept me," I said, crying. Then my father came out with his shotgun and threaten to shoot everywhere until I came back to the house. Alex asked me if he could come back tomorrow and continue our conversation. But I said I might not be here tomorrow.

Here's my plan to end my suffering tomorrow: My school has some balconies and the windows are always open. So at, like, lunchtime, or something like that, I'll sneak away and announce to everyone from the school microphone, "Attention all students, staff, and townspeople. I request that you go outside immediately. You must have a view of the highest balcony, the one facing the town from the principals' office. This is an emergency." Since there's a mic in the principals' office, that's where I'll announce it from. Then, I'll calmly walk out to the balcony and wait until the school is watching. There are outside speakers, too, for dismissal. I'll tune the mic to both inside and out, turning the loud as high as the volume will go, then make my announcement. That way, people will come out from work or home and they'll see it, too. I'll set an example in this school. In this town.

Then I will jump. And my suffering will end for good. Then it will all stop. See you tomorrow.