I would say "picture this," but let me paint it out for you, these scenarios. Sitting in a Walmart parking lot or overlooking the city at 2am when and where the world is actually quiet. Neither of us leaving the car because we have to finish a good song. Sitting in shitty motels where the mattress kills your back and the shower doesn't warm up. Ole reliable, your shitty but accountable crappy go to car. Dragging in luggage thru the cold Minnesota winter into the empty hotel rooms. Looking at eachother knowingly with hope and hidden excitement. Sitting in a waffle House at 4 am listening to the usual student customers come in, and very entertaining truckers. When in a really deep conversation, it goes quiet, and it doesn't feel awkward, just sitting on the floor cross-legged listening to the city and watching the headlights glide across the wall from the window in the dark. Not only feeling validated for being pissed about something, but you actually having to calm them down in the middle of your own chaos story. Driving over the speed limit, heart racing or slower to calm down and think. Sitting on a train watching your town pass by and it being heart clenching, but so mesmerising. Calling eachother names, and meaning it, but still sticking with them anyway. When for some reason both have the same overwhelming realization at the same moment, that you're on a serious adult mission, so you run and slam a snowball at the back of their head for good times sake and measure. Shoving for room in front of the AC or sitting against a cold wall not knowing what to do with your summer. Bored out of your mind, but at least bored together. Driving at night unsure of where it will take you. Laughing at eachothers thoughts. Million Dollar ideas, whether you agree or drop dead laughing because it was that stupid. The only roles being played at the time is them the DJ and snack supplier and you, the driver. When you're on the highway and the sun is almost up. You realize all these people on the road are going to work or a particular destination, and you..don't really know.. eatting bizarre foods either because you're broke and have to get creative or its your guys delicacy. Still feeling tired when waking up with slurred voice, but feeling warm when you hear their voice or feel their presence. Walking in, then taking off uncomfortable shoes and socks and into lazy clothing and just feeling amazing. Sitting watching shows you did when you were younger, whether sharing it or showing it, with a whole box of off brand cereal and Kwik trip bagged milk. Not feeling like you have to buy them anything, especially not to prove you know them or listen. But just overlooking what they like and knowing it will be a surprise. Not knowing wtf they want.. so instead of buying them what they want you get them what you both knew you needed.. tickets. Talking about concerts the same daydreamy way others talk about prom or engagements. Lots of naps. Walking into theatres using the winters as an excuse to bring in three layers of candy. Getting to listen to the best singing voice that ever happened. Someone who listens intensely and speaks passionately. Being the only two on the planet while still respecting others. This is what it's like to have Andrea as a companion much less girlfriend. Sidekick and right hand man. She's right there. Worst part is that she could 110% mess with someone better. And maybe in your eyes you could too. But there's something about her that's just so overwhelming, like a dream. Like the heart race of sneaking out but comfort of staying in. The ability to just enjoy company and not always having to have banter. Straight to the point while occasionally taking the long way. Partner in crime and parole cop. Hell, you both could be off better, but something about it feels so undeniably right. Whoever would give that up, even push it away is insane and deserves better. They deserve to enjoy closemindedness. We can't afford that, we like things the way they are. We like us the way we are. Or accepting things just because they are. This is an artwork.
