January

Jan 6 2018

I have to say, she really likes things her way, which isn't always a bad thing but it's not always good either, some can't seem to say no to her, or she'll be upset, then, she won't talk for a while, then everything goes wrong......awkward silence..... I hate these, I wish some would understand that people can't always get what they want, it's fair for everyone, I think I might fall asleep writing this, I don't understand, this silence has gone on for to long, I don't get it, is she upset, am I doing something wrong, is it me, is it my decisions, I'm confused, helpppp, I'm sinking deep in silence, you can hear the air conditioning very well, every bit of noise, it's so simple tho, I kind of like it, it's plain, kinda like vanilla ice cream, I like that to. Uhhh finally, she broke it, I'm glad, I'm just still thinking about the Fanta float, Orange Fanta with vanilla ice cream in it, mmmmmm.... amazing, although it didn't go quite well with a stomach ache, it's painful, it's like all your intestines are squished, like a bug, that's bothering you while your outside, human nature is interesting, all the creatures are here for a reason, they either predators or prey, like boys and girls, boys chase after girls, and most girls flee. I got my eye on one tho, he nice funny and cute, he's great in all ways, I have a lot of guy friends, idk why tho, it's weird to be apart of something you said you wanted to stay away from. Oh no, silence again, why, just why, do I say something, do I keep silent, do I show her this, I'm hesitant, like wether you want to tell the truth or lie, either one will mainly lead to something great, ikr lying, not the good type, well guess what, it's called learning a lesson. She said something again, she asked what I was doing, I said typing, this isn't the most important thing, just explaining my feelings, put painfully, like when the teacher calls on you, and like me I freak out, like hun I didn't raise my hand for a reason, I try to see the possibilities, nun, absolutely nun. She said something again, she asked what wrong, nothing much just focused, just keep talking Nevaeh, and you'll never see her again, cause she'll hate you for rejecting her! Nah I'd usually say, by who knows, I feel bad, I'm not talking, I'm typing the shit I should be saying! She's in the bathroom right now, what do I do when she gets back, oh she's back, do I tell her,ughhhhh, I'm so confused, she said she's hurting, lactose and tolerance, I get that, it's not cool, just like when your dad dabs in front of your friends, like seriously, what are you trying to prove, the last thing I want you to do is that, come on now! She has a cat, he's not the best, but he exists, not necessarily a bad thing, just a thing, a living creature, who hates almost everyone, it's like that one person at school who roasts everyone and then always keeps to themselves, i guess that's me sometimes. Its not the best thing, it's a strange thing to do, to hate, for no reason really, I hurt to much to type more, it's gross, it's ew, it's disgusting, disturbing.