Getting My Answers

Picking Up The Broken Pieces Of Us

I wandered around the store as he picked up what he needed. I put some more veggies in the cart along with some fresh fruits. Other than that I was good. Being nosey, I saw wine, steak, potatoes, and roses in the cart. There was something else but he had it well hidden. A box of condoms maybe? I mean we've never used them before because I can't get pregnant. I guess we'd see later. I watched the clerk check him out as he set the variety of food up on the lane. I was getting jealous.
"I'm sorry, Janet" I said as I read her name tag. "You seem like a very nice woman, but can you stop checking out my boyfriend? I'd appreciate it very much." I smiled at her. I wasn't trying to be rude, but he was mine.  Yes, we were fixing some things, but he was still mine. I carried some bags to the trunk of the car and gently set them inside. I turned around only to be kissed by Dimitri. I was shocked at first,but I wasn't about to push his advances away. I pulled him closer to me. The kiss was slow and gentle. It was nice and comforting, letting me know that we were gonna be okay. He pulled away reluctantly and we got in the car.

Once we got home he offered to put all the food away and then asked me to wait in his bedroom. Well, he said 'our' bedroom, but it still felt like his. I sat there on the edge of the bed and waited like he asked me to. He came around the corner and I didn't move. He had a tray of fruits and a small bowl of chocolate sauce. I smiled as he set it on his night stand and came back around to me. He motioned for me to stand up and turn around, facing away from him. He began to rub my shoulders, rubbing away the tension that has resided there. No shower could do what he was doing right now. Everything seemed to be melting away. I let my head fall back against him as he massaged away my worries.
"Turn around, Roza." He whispered right next to my ear. I did as I was told and faced him. His fingers slid under the hem of my shirt and slowly dragged it up. He tossed it next to the bed and kissed my lips softly. My hands wrapped around to his back, feeling every muscle ripple under my fingers. He moved his kisses down to my neck and collarbone, sending chills down my whole body. He undid the button on my jeans and worked them down over my hips, not that it was a hard task, and helped me out of them. They ended up next to shirt on the floor. I stood in front of him in nothing but my bra. I saw his eyes as he revealed my lack of panties. A quick smile flashed across his lips and then disappeared. His mouth found mine once again. He only moved to discard his own clothes and soon we were both bare.
"If you're not ready for this we can" he cut me off with a kiss, telling me he was ready. His fingers let my hair fall around my shoulders and my face. I couldn't help wanting him. I jumped into his arms and clung to him. His hands cupped my ass as he laid me into the bed. This time there was no kisses down to my sex or me teasing my way to his manhood. It was simple and amazing. He kissed my neck as his hardened shaft poked my stomach. I was eager to have him inside of me, but I was also nervous. It had been a while since we were intimate. He parted my legs with his and slowly, so slowly, he began to fill me up. My eyes closed and my fingers dug into his middle back. A moan left my kiss swollen lips and mingled into the cool air around us. He didn't move for a minute as he let me get used to his massive size again. After several minutes, I wiggled my hips to let him know I was ready.  He pulled out, except the tip and slid back into me several times. Listening to his groans was like music to my ears. We would be okay. Maybe not tonight and maybe not tomorrow, but we would get through this. Together.
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I woke up from my short nap on his chest. Our fingers were intertwined and rested by his left side. This was nice. Just resting here with him. I wanted to push everything that happened out of my head and move on and that was exactly what I was going to do. I sat up and stretched, feeling all of my muscles sing in happiness as they got to move from their slumped state. I ran my fingers through my hair and then I straddled his waist. I looked down at his sleeping form and smiled. I leaned down to his ear and whispered softly.
"I forgive you because I love you." I sat back up and placed my hands on his chest. I lightly drug my fingers up and down his broad shoulders and chest. His eyes opened and looked at me.
"This is a very compromising position." He stated.
"I believe it is." I said grinding against him. He smiled and held my hips still.
"I have something for you." He reached under his pillow and held a little black box. I stared at him and then glanced at his hands.
"What is it?" Curiosity finally won me over.
"Open it." He placed it in my hands and watched me. I opened the box and in it sat a ring with three diamonds in the center. My eyes shot up to his.
"A compromise." He stated. "Maybe someday marriage will be on the table, but for now, a promise ring." He smiled. I wiped away a tear and kissed him.
"A compromise." I agreed.
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I watched him as he grilled the steaks he bought earlier. I poured myself a glass of wine and sipped on it slowly, taking note of the way his body reacted when he moved. I smiled as an idea crawled into my head. I silently left and went to my room. I moved all of my clothes back to our room and then I put something sexy on. It was a black and red teddy with a black thong and stockings. It pushed my breasts up further than they've ever been. The corset back was tricky to tie by myself but I eventually got it. I picked my lotion up out of the trash and spread it on all of my exposed skin.
"Roza, can you get me a platter for the meat please?" He called. I smiled and quickly got my red heels on and glanced at the ring on my finger. I walked to the kitchen and I didn't say a word as his eyes drank my apparel in. I stretched my body out as far as I could to tease him as I got the platter. I walked it over to him slowly and held it right under my breasts as he set the steaming meat on it.
"Do you want me to set it on the counter or the table?" I asked innocently.
"The.. the um...the...anywhere is fine." He struggled to spit his words out.
"Okay." I smiled wickedly. I set it on the far counter and purposely stuck my ass out for his pleasure. I heard him clear his throat and groan a little bit before going silent. He was trying to keep control and I was going to make sure he broke it. I sexily walked my way back to him and kissed the back of his shoulders. I wrapped my hands around to his abdomen and slowly let my hands fall dangerously close to his manhood.
"Is there anything else I can do for you, Dimitri?" I asked, my voice dripping with lust and want. I quickly gripped his manhood and kissed his neck. "Let me know if there is. I'm gonna go take care of my needs." I nipped his ear lobe and squeezed his ass before I walked away. I laid in the bed and let my hands rest above my head, hanging off the edge of the bed. I moaned loudly, not even touching myself.
"Mmmm, Dimitri!" I smiled as it turned me on. "Right there!" I had to keep from laughing. I watched the doorway, waiting for him to round the corner. I blinked and he was there, eyes black with need, and hands clenched at his sides. He walked over to me, dangerously slow, almost as if he was stalking his prey. I felt a rush of energy and bravery. I slid my hands down my body and was just about to touch my hot center, when he captured my hands and held them in one of his.
"I believe that this is my job." He growled into my ear. His free hand gripped my sex and I worked against him to create that sweet friction.
"Then why don't you do it right." I teased. I've always wanted to have rough, hot, passionate sex with this man and I was determined to get it one way or another.
"Do it right, huh?" He asked flipping me over on to my stomach. He fought with my corset and yanked it out from under me. He bit my shoulder and ripped my thong from my body. My sex grew moist from that animalistic motion. "I'll show you right."  He thrust himself inside of me roughly. My eyes rolled into the back of my head and my fists gripped the blanket. I shoved some in my mouth to keep from screaming out too loud. His pace was fast and deep. I knew instantly I was going to be sore in the morning. Every time he thrust back in to me, it felt like he was in my throat. I moaned and groaned as he fucked me the way I needed him too. Later he'd be worried that he hurt me. He was so caring and loving that sometimes I felt that he thought he had to be like that all the time. Grabbing a handful of my hair, he yanked my head back. This domination was exactly what I needed right now.

He leaned over me and kissed my neck roughly. He was enjoying this just as much as I was. I was so close to reaching my climax. Thrust after thrust, I finally released all around him. This was the hardest I've ever came with him. My legs shook and my body stiffened. He gave me a few more deep thrusts before releasing as well. He pulled himself from me and collapsed beside me. That. Was. Amazing.
"I'm gonna feel that in the morning." I giggled. I moved slowly and kissed his lips. "Thank you."
"No, thank you. That's better than makeup sex!" He smiled. He tried to calm his breathing down and then slid his pants back on. "Dinner is ready, and after that, we're gonna need to eat." He laughed and helped me get dressed. I kicked my heels off and he lead the stockings down my legs. I pulled my hair up into a messy bun and wore one of his worn shirts that smelled like him and a pair of shorts. We sat on the couch and ate our steak, occasionally giving each other teasing looks. I smiled and finished my vegetables and looked at him again.
"This is really good." I said between bites. When I was done, and so was he, I took our plates, scraped them and washed them, setting them in the strainer. As I returned to the couch I sat and faced him.

Through all of our ups and downs, my love for him has hit its rough patches, but it's remained strong. He smiled and moved closer to me and lifted me into his lap. I don't think we could get enough of each other. I laid my head on his shoulder and sleep over came me. My dream was so vivid.
**Beginning of dream:
"You're so beautiful. You know that?" He looked into my eyes with his loving ones. I was momentarily speechless, so I laid my head on his shoulder.
"You have me, as long as you want me. I'm forever yours." I kissed his neck.
"I don't want to lose you and I most certainly don't want anyone else trying to get you." He spoke. I was prepared for him to say that I was his, but something else got my attention. "Marry me." Was all he said. I froze.

Was he serious? Was this really going to happen? I was going to tread lightly.

"What?" I asked. "But you don't want to be married. I don't want you to think that you have to marry me. What changed?" I asked, running my fingers through his hair.
"What changed is that I realized that we belong together. The thought of someone else touching you at night, or kissing you, or holding you....it gets to me. You're mine and I am yours. I want to keep you forever." He kissed me softly. "Marry me." He repeated again.

I thought about it and looked at him.
"Can I think about it?" I whispered.
"Absolutely." He smiled up at me.
*End dream
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Later that night I got up and sat outside. I needed to clear my head and decipher dream from reality. I stared at the ring on my finger.
"A compromise." I half smiled. I knew he was trying and I couldn't be mad at him for that. I was angry at myself for thinking that marriage for us was actually going to happen.  He said it might, but what if I grew used to our compromise and didn't want to be married? The thought of him leaving me again filled my head. I wiped tears from my eyes before they fell. I had to pull myself together. I slowed my breathing and made sure to wait until the sadness in my voice disappeared before I walked back in the house. I was afraid to talk to him about this. I guess if nothing else got in our way I could try and bring it up.