I Am Not A Feminist I Am Just A Teenager (On Hold)

16. stone

I seriously hate to yawn , but here I am sitting in the history class and the teacher is lecturing about something which I am obviously not getting in my head. Why? Well i dont know. Maybe because of lack of sleep. Alice is taking bed rest and I can't afford to take leaves. Principle has already called Me to her office to talk about it.

    I tried my best to concentrate but I couldn't. My eyes began to blink and I couldn't control it. I shook my head , got sober for few seconds and guess what? Again back to the square one. I began to feel my eyes getting watered and its getting unbearable to even open my eyes.

Why does my eyes weight so much?

And I idly looked at the diagonal bench of mine.

Ashton?

Never knew that he would be in school and then I saw him taking some sharp object and piercing it deep in to his wrist.

What the fuck?

His eyes suddenly met mine. He was surprised but there was some other emotion. Scared? Maybe .

What the heck is he doing?

"Miss. Nair"

If you don't know how to pronounce it then don't. God! Why is it so hard for them to speak my name correctly.

"Yes?"

"Just go out before I give you detention" Mr. Arthur said. I gave him a small smile and said "thanks" some students chuckled. I caught Ashton's stare.

If looks could kill then I might be dead and burried .

I walked as quietly as I could.

Why was he hurting himself?

What is he gaining by doing it?

I went to the girls washroom and splashed some water on my face and without drying my face, I left the washroom.

The bell rang suddenly and thus the history class came to an end.

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I could hear girls gossiping about something or should i say someone. I tried my best to not give any shit to their bullshit but suddenly something grabbed attention by my stupid ears.

"Did you know , Zach.Stone is discharged?"

"Omg seriously?"

"Yeah and I heard that he got an arm brocken. I heard that he won't come to school anymore."

"What? Omg "

"I wish I could kiss him"

And I tuned it off. Because the rest of conversation was about his body mainly abs and other stuffs which I don't know. Who is this Zach.Stone ?Can it be the person who i am thinking?

Note to myself, if you meet new faces then please fucking ask them their names, well only applied to the people who are like , good? Or maybe trust worthy? Or more like gentle?

I shut my locker and went to home. I reached my coffin sized room , well atleast the food is great and spilled everything to Alice.

"Do you know who is Zach.Stone?" I asked while making coffee for both of us.

"Zach.Stone who unfortunately met with an accident?"

"How come I kn-"

"Zach.stone who is an illegal bicker?"

"Okay girl look I he-"

"Zach.stone who is hospitalised?"

"Will you let me TALK" I gave more strength to the word talk.

"Sorry"

"I heard that he is discharged and won't come to school"

"Stupid bitches. They would say lot of fucks about him. Don't get into it. He is not like that kinda person. He is more kinda risk taking guy."

"How do you know that?" I asked with a small smile which is obviously teasing.

"What? I know him for like five fucking years even though he never noticed me ."

"Why does I have a feeling that you are not a lesbian?" I said to myself.

Why?

"Why do you ask anyway?" Giving me the same look that I just gave her.

Friends suck

" I was just curious " and I took my coffee mug and poured my coffee in it and went to room without even considering to fill her cup of coffee.

Do it yourself! I screamed inside.

While sleeping I thought  about Ashton and Zach. I didn't wanted to say about Ashon's 'thing' to Alice. Maybe I wanted it to be a secret after all she is keeping plethora of secrets from me.

Anyway I am glad that tommarow onwards Alice will be there , with me.