Unexpected Baby

The Wait

It's been two weeks since Carmilla and Mattie were looking for some kind of wizard or witch to look, I forgot what name they gave to it, into my pregnancy. In the meantime, I was more relax as I was hoping to get a definitive answer soon. I was doubting for the most part but I had to stay positive for Carm's sake.

The pregnancy was kinda changing her. As much as she didn't want to admit it, she was trying to avoid me. Maybe she was not ready to cope with it. Knowing her, I knew that she would not come to me to talk about her feelings. Getting a broody vampire like her to express out loud her emotions is tough. She was kind of the person that her personality showed through her actions. 

Some nights she would leave me alone in the bed. And when she did join me, it would be when I was fast asleep. I tried not to push her because I knew that she would come to me when she is ready. I just have no idea when that will be, I sighed looking at her.  

She was talking, almost like whispering, to Mattie in the living so I could not hear what they were talking about. I had no idea why they would keep something from since I was the one carrying that thing inside of me. They should be sharing anything they have so I could prepare myself for what might come. 

"Hey guys!" I barged in trying to catch a glimpse of their conversation.

"Hey," Carm responded, quickly cutting what she was telling Mattie. 

"Hey Laura! How are you doing?" the latter asked.

"I am doing great. You?" 

"Good."

"So, is there anything new about the search?" I asked curiously.

"No...no...nothing," Carmilla responded hesitantly, like she was hiding something.

"You know you can tell me anything, right? I AM THE ONE WHO IS PREGNANT."

"We know Laura," my girlfriend responded smoothly, looking at me with tender eyes.

"Then what aren't you telling me?" I said with my hands on my hips, giving that look that told them that could not back down.

We sat there silently for a couple minutes before Carmilla admitted that the finally found the person they were looking for. I was feeling so emotions at the same time that I felt like I was going to pass out. 

"Are you okay there cupcake?" Carm asked, putting her hands around my shoulder.

"Yeah, yeah. I guess so." I responded absently. "I'm gonna go to bed, it's pretty late."

"I'll be up in a minute babe."

"Okay."

I headed to our room while Carm was saying her goodbye to Mattie. I did not know what to think. One minute I wanted to know the truth but now, I was so scared of it. I could not stop thinking about what would happen when we discover it. What would be Carm's reaction? I was so lost in my thoughts that I did not hear her come into the bedroom. She knelt beside the bed facing me. Her eyes were filled with compassion, love, affection. 

"We could go there tomorrow if you want to," she said.

"What will happen when we know the truth Carm?"

"We will worry about that later. I just want to know for now that you are safe."

"I'm scared," I admitted. I did not even notice that I was crying until she was wiping them on my face. 

"I know and I am too. I am scared of losing you or that mom is making you carry something monstrous inside your beautiful body. You have been through a lot since we got together. I might be the source of the danger that you constantly face. Maybe...maybe if we weren't..."

"Don't say that," I cut her in whatever she was thinking. "Don't you ever say that again. You hear me? I could face any danger with you by my side." I took her face into my hands so she was looking right into my eyes. "Because you, Carmilla Karntein, is my strength, the reason I keep moving on, the one person that challenges me and brings the best out of me. I would not trade you for anything. We are stronger together." 

I leaned and rest my forehead to hers. "I love you," I said. She did not respond, but instead showed it to me through a passionate kiss. It was not rush nor slow. It was somehow new, which gave me that tickling in my stomach. Her lips felt softer and warmer as they moved synchronically with mines. 

"I love you too Laura. More than anything," she said while getting in the bed behind me. Her nose found its way up to my neck. "You are my world. I don't know what I would do without you."

I slept that night feeling safe with Carm's arms around me. I fell asleep listening to her breathing. I noticed too that she hadn't slept for days as it did not take her long to fall asleep. I was certain about one thing as I was drifting into sleep: it was that Carm and I would survive anything, any difficulties, any challenges.