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Chapter 1: The Beginning of the End

It was 3 am, on a warm August night. I was about to turn 17, and only a few weeks into 11th grade.

My boyfriend Ronnie Radke and I had just gotten back from sneaking out to the skate park. He lived a block away and had a car, so sneaking out was fairly easy, especially since my parents never noticed.

"Tonight was fun babe." Ronnie grinned. "Yeah it was." I said as I smiled softly trying to break away from the moment. "I have to go now babe. For real this time, we have school tomorrow and i need to get some sleep." I told him for the third time.

He reached over and grabbed my thigh, and i knew where this was going next. As he began to kiss me, he climbed over the center console of the car to my side. He unclipped my seat belt and then i felt the seat fling backwards.

"Ronnie! No not in the car! And wha... What if someone sees us?!?" I yelped. "C'mon babe. You never let me get passed 3rd base. How is that fair?" he whined back at me. "Ronald Joseph Radke! No! You know that I'm a virgin and i dont want to waste that." I sternly yelled at him "Listen babe. You love me right?" He had asked. "Yes, of Course...bu" I was cut off

He proceeded to say "If you love me, then it's not wasting it. C'mon Tay please?" "No Ronnie. I mean it! I have to go!" I said pushing him off of me.

Ronnie was always trying to get me to have sex with him. He also liked to pull a reasonable explanation of why, leaving me to babble on trying to find a good answer of why not.

"I have to go. Seriously. I love you!" I said as i kissed him one last time. I got out of the car and turned to look at him. He had a disappointed look on his face.

"Yeah, Yeah love you too!" he said rolling up the window and starting the engine to the car. "Great! He's mad at me." I whispered to myself watching him begin to drive away.

I waved him off, and began walking up my driveway. I went around to the side of the garage where there was a single door leading into my laundry room. My dad always left this open in case of emergencies i thought, or maybe he just continuously forgets to lock it.

I snuck in through the garage to my laundry room, and made my way around the hallway and up the stairs. I walked past my parents room and could see they were still asleep.

Quietly shutting the door, I slipped off my shoes and jacket.  I jumped onto my bed, letting all of the force and weight of my body droop.

As I pulled my phone out, I saw a notification. A text from Ronnie.                                                      Ronnie:  Tonight would've been perfect if you would just let me! I give up with you. Goodnight

After setting my phone down, I proceeded to get settled in. I took off my jeans and shirt and threw them into the hamper by my door.

I went into my bathroom and ran the water, hoping a shower would magically make me feel better. Quickly, I took my makeup off and proceeded to undress, and slipped into the shower. I sat there thinking 'maybe i should let him. am i being ridiculous? what 17 year old is still a virgin?'

After my long needed shower I got dressed and climbed into bed. I grabbed my phone to look at the text from Ronnie again, this time reading it aloud.                                                                              Ronnie: Tonight would've been perfect if you would just let me! I give up with you. Goodnight

I then began typing on my keyboard.                                                                                                                         Me: I thought about it and I'm sorry I'm so stubborn. if you give me some more time then ye...

I stopped typing and began thinking once more. Then i deleted all of the text from my keyboard and put my phone on the table. I tried to ignore the thought as i fell asleep and eventually i did.

I woke up the next morning to the sound of my never ending alarm. Rolling over, groaning, I looked up at my ceiling. I sighed as I sat up, containing nothing but dread. Eventually my feet felt the urge to discover the icy cold tiling that lay beneath them.

I got up and got dressed in the usual, a striped t shirt, ripped jeans and vans. I ran to the bathroom and brushed out my hair and carefully applied my mascara and eyeliner. Then I grabbed my phone off my bed and trudged down the stairs.

"Mom! I'm going to school I'll see you later." I screamed through the house. While I grabbed my bag off the kitchen counter I could hear my mom yelling "Ok goodbye, love you!"

I walked out of the house, making my way over to my car, starting its engine and taking off down the block.I parked my car in the yard and made my way up to Ronnie's front door.

As I shut the door, I heard something call for me from around the corner of the hallway saying "Tay is that you?"  It was Ronnie's sister Scarlett who happened to be my best friend.

"Hey scar!" I smiled back giving her a hug once she had approached me.Scarlett and I had known each other since we were 8. Ronnie's dad and Scarlett's mom had married when we were 14, so initially I had always been close to Ronnie, even before we were dating.

"Hey babe" Ronnie said to me as me and Scarlet walked down the long hallway of their home. 'huh...Ronnie wasn't mad after all.' I thought to myself. "Hey!" I said giving him a kiss. "You ready for school?" He had asked me. "Yeah, ready if you guys are?" I replied as we all nodded in agreement. They grabbed their bags, and we made our way out to Ronnie's car.After a few short conversations, we were at school.

As we made our way down the hallway to our lockers I looked to my right to see the bitch squad. "Don't make eye contact!" Scarlett had whispered under her breath, nudging my arm with her elbow. "Well, the freak's here!" I could hear coming from the front of the pack. It was Madison. Madison was the perfect, snobby, rich bitch that every jock had banged.

She was standing there with the pack of sluts that consisted of Shelby, Allie and Korrinna. "Shut up barbie. Is somebody mad because daddy won't pay for their botox injections this month?" I said rolling my eyes.

It was easy to figure out why we all called her Barbie. She had a boob job done, she practically had money handed to her on a silver platter, and was perfect and fake in all aspects.

"Oh shut up you weird emo freak!" She snapped back. "Better watch your tone or I'll tell principle Williams that your cuts were showing through your gym shorts!" One of the other girls had rambled on.

Ronnie grabbed my arm to where nobody else could notice but me."Just leave it be. Walk off Madison." Ronnie told her looking back at Scarlett and I.

"Whatever Radke. Consider yourself on my shit list." She said flipping her honey blonde hair over her shoulder and walking off, with her army of skanks trailing behind.

I was then wooshed away into an open classroom. "What the hell Ron! Let go of me." I belted realizing Ronnie was the one who yoked me up. "So you're cutting again?" He said,  giving me a very stern look. "N...no..wha...Ok they weren't fresh. They were from a week ago." I could hear those words slip out of my mouth with a sort of quiver in my voice.

"TAYLOR! You know how I feel about that. If they tell anybody my reps ruined! I have a spot on the football team if I want it, but if the guys find out about this I'm gonna have my ass handed to me! I already get enough shit for dating you..." he had stopped ranting once he noticed I was pissed. "For what Ronnie? God you're so unbelievable!! Leave me alone." I said walking off. "NICE!" Scarlett yelled at him, quickly running after me.