dear dan,
Apparently you attempted suicide again today. My mum woke me up with the news that you had tried to overdose again. We rushed to the er where i met your mum and sister. Your mum was shaking and sobbing uncontrollably. She said she was nauseous and felt as if she was going to be ill. I went to your room, you were conscious. I started babbling on and on about god knows what, then i finally said 'you're ignoring me' and you looked up at me. It broke my heart. You looked so embarrassed and sad. I left the room. They wanted to transfer you to children's hospital. Once you were in the ambulance; me, my mum, your mum and your sister had a conversation. I'm sorry. I told them everything. I told them about the sexual harrasment, your sexuailty. Everything. Then i was supposed to go back to your house and check on the kittens you just got. When we got there i saw the bowl you had puked in. the couch you were sitting on. All your vomit everywhere. I helped your cats then headed over into london to go to the children's hospital. We got there and you were still awake. You were talking and stuff. We fucked around with the nurses by having you hold your breathe to see if they'd notice. We laughed so much. Then you went up to the med unit. Those doctors were going to take care of you. The med unit was so much nicer than the er, and i loved it. At one point me and your sister and my mum were sitting in the family room when your mom came in bawling and sobbing. It broke my heart more. Me and your sister went back in your room and told you. You didn't care. You didn't want us there. The doctors came in and had your sister tell them what you looked like when she found you. Apparently you were lying on the couch, and you swallowed a shit load of pills. You puked all over yourself. You looked so guilty when she was talking. Why'd you do that dan? Why?
-phil