My Journal on Life.

January 12, 2018

Before I say anything about today, I am going to tell you about yesterday. 

Last night was a hard night. It is always going to be one of the hardest nights for me for the rest of my life since 3rd grade. Third grade. Third grade 2009 is when my grandfather passed away because of Pancreatic Cancer. He was a really great guy. Yesterday was his birthday. He would have been 76 years old. We had cremated him when he passed and spread his ashes at my dads childhood home at a deer stand they made together. It was the worst night of my entire life when I found out he passed away. What made it even worse was that I had to go to school the very next day. That same year we read a book about a man who had cancer but had survived. That whole year and the next few following I had gone to the counselors office more times than I can count or even remember. I spent more time there than actual class. That was the first worst day of my life. That is why January 11 will always be a hard day. I had a good relationship with my grandpa. We went fishing all the time when I saw him and I we went swimming all the time too. We even jumped off of a bunch of rope swings and he taught me how to drive a boat. He was the coolest person I knew. I just wish he was still here. 

I wish he could've met Hunter. I wish he could've met my friends. I wish he could have seen me run a race for cross country or track. I wish he could have even seen a basketball game or seen me at a dance or something. But he won't because he is physically unable. Yeah it sucks but it's life. I'll go through it every year and feel it the next day just like I am today. Just like I will next year today. It sucks. Life sucks. Welcome to the world we live in. That's all I have to say about that though. 

Back to the present->

Today is January 12, 2018; Friday; at 10:37 A.M. I am in 5th hour because today is a half day and no school Monday. 

Today is also a special day for myself. Today Hunter and I have been together for a year and six months. It's crazy to believe that I've put up with him for this long but what can I say? I kinda like the guy. He's pretty crazy but everyone's a little insane.  (especially him) We get into fights all the time(because I like to pick fights)and were still going strong. Yeah sometimes I hate him and I want to kill him but I haven't killed him yet so that's saying something I guess. He's been there for me, even yesterday on one of the hardest days of my life. Just like he'll be there for me today if he figures out that I am acting a little off today. 

I finished two books yesterday though. (on the bright side of things) They were both really good. One was This Raging Light (an actual book) the other was a sequel book; it was called 68 days and it's on here. Probably one of my favorite books on here. It was really good and I could relate to it a lot on a personal level. They were both really good books though. Today I started a new book called A Madness so Discreet. It's pretty good so far. Not sure what it will lead to but it's pretty interesting. It's a real book from a library at school too. (not saying books on here aren't real just saying I can't get them from the library or school) 

Well I guess this is enough for the day. I'll see ya when I see ya! 

Love ya!

-T