always and forever

always and forever - vkook

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"You can keep me warm on a cold night."

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Jungkook bolts up out of bed, arms flailing about for something he knows he'll never reach, shirt and hair drenched in cold sweat. The collar of his shirt is fisted in his hand, his heart pounding wildly. Shallow breaths are rippling through him violently and he fights to keep his steadily increasing panic under control. He shakes his head as tears slip down his cheeks.

Though it may become reality, as of now it was only a dream. Only a dream...

Nevertheless, he can't keep his chest from heaving as he desperately strives to calm his breathing. Ah, he wants Taehyung to be here, rubbing his back and whispering soothing words. But everyone's asleep and they all deserve rest after how busy they've been recently.

No, he won't wake Taehyung up for something as stupid as this... After all, just thinking of his boyfriend calms him. Jungkook doubts there is anyone in the world who can rival Taehyung's magnificence as a person.

His sun-kissed skin.

His beautiful smile, bringing light to every situation.

His voice, an angel's voice, hitting high notes so perfectly it sent chills down Jungkook's spine.

His lips, soft and pretty peach like the sky of a newly risen sun.

His eyes. Oh, Tae's eyes... One look from those beautiful eyes could send Jungkook reeling, feeling both vulnerable and safe simultaneously. One look from those breathtaking eyes would wipe his mind of all thoughts until all he could focus on was Taehyung.

Kim Taehyung.

Jungkook sighs, comforted. He takes deep breaths, regulating his breathing before crawling out from under the covers and standing tentatively. Wiping the sweat off his forehead, he strips his shirt, throwing it on the floor. It feels as if the air itself is boiling. Why is the temperature in his room so damn high!?

He needs fresh air.

Putting on a lighter pajama shirt and grabbing his throw blanket, Jungkook carefully opens his bedroom door. He walks quietly past the other member's rooms and exits the apartment out the back door. Letting out a breath he wasn't aware he was holding, he startles at the sight of snow on the ground. A small smile pulls at the corners of his mouth. Jungkook exhales softly, watching his breath turn to icy mist in the air. He settles in on the second step of the back door staircase, wrapping the blanket around his shoulders before leaning against the stair railing.

Snowflakes drift slowly towards the ground, the sky a white layer of clouds. These minuscule snow crystals come down to rest softly in Jungkook's hair and he lets out a laugh, amused.

He closes his eyes, completely and utterly relaxed. This is exactly what Jungkook needed. What could possibly make this moment better or worse?

Yet, as soon as he lets his mind go, peace inhabiting his thoughts, his nightmare comes back to chase him and corrupts his short-lived serenity.

Jungkook's back goes taut like a bowstring and his eyes snap open. He'd barely had his eyes closed for a second before what he'd been aiming to forget came back to bite him in the ass.

He berates himself, voicing aloud, "It was just a dream... Stop thinking about it."

Even now, his heart sinks, images of a disbanded BTS and a violent breakup with V filling his mind. It's enough to cause his shoulders to shake from the sheer force it takes to hold back his cries. The dream is still fresh, haunting him.