STORY OF MY LIFE

Dear Secret Stuff,

I don't see myself as a loser today, because I have created history through my name. My story itself is an inspiration for others. My life is a poetry which can lead one to see through the gray shades of lifelong journey. I am in love with the beautiful chapters of my life. I don't see emotions overruling my heart and soul, taking me back to the gray areas of my life.

These were the words I could write at that moment over the pages of my dairy. And the phone beeps... It was Rahul in the call.

Hello Rahul, I receive his call and ask, 'how are you doing?'

Hello Mantasha. 'I am doing absolutely fine. What about you?' he replies with a happy tone in his voice.

I am doing well too', I replied to his words with a claim to tell the reason for his call.

And he speaks, 'Well Mantasha, you've to treat me heavy for what I am going to tell you can take few of your grief away.'

There is a feeling of excitement in my heart for I really love surprises. With a heart full of thoughts I agree to his words and ask him the news. I ask him not to make me panic and just let me know the reason behind his call.

He starts,

I had a talk with Abhinash Chatterjee (Chairman,' News India') the most celebrated and sophisticated news channel of Mumbai. We are engaged in a program to be highlighted for the upcoming event of World Women's Day. In between our conversation your name suddenly flicked my mind, as he asks me for a heart taking story of a woman that I am mindful about. Hope you are getting what I am trying to explain to you Mantasha.

It's totally fine to remember my name for such an occasion. And I am thankful to that. Is this the news for which you're trying to take a treat from me? I replied to his explanation with a calm sense.

Don't panic much Mantasha. I've a lot more to tell you. Listen, he says as he proceeds, the chairman of the channel has granted me the permission to choose the life of a lady to be presented for the day. And I have decided to take up your story for the day to be pen down in the headlines of every newspapers and channels. I just need your consideration.

Before he could move forward with his talk I interpret him in between. Rahul, you know well that I will not be able to present my story to the world. Not in front of such a big audience. I have been keeping my past with myself for years and shared at times with few close to me. And you are one of those few I have.

He replies with a convincing voice, 'Try to understand Mantasha, opportunities never comes our way back. Your story is a piece of history, it can create wonders. It is full of life and can provide life to many if you dare to share. Don't worry about failure; this word is not a part of you. You were a winner and you'll always be. Please say yes and come for the interview. Please.

It was definitely a piece of surprising news for me. I never wonder of putting up my own story to the world. If I wondered I would have end writing down my own world instead of writing many other piece of works that people enjoy reading and admire a lot.

Rahul on the other hand is a friend in need and a partner of my scripts. And saying a 'NO' to him is next to impossible. Collecting back all those convincing words if his I said that I'll be telling him my decision the next morning in the office. And we ended up the call with "See You Tomorrow.'

The night spent in the movement of one side to another of my bed, because I have recall all the moments that I have come across so far in my life. The gray shades of my life that I never ever wanted to remember again. And the next thought of remembering it again for the session wrecks me apart. But somewhere I know I've to do that and I need to overcome my fear of dealing with my past. And in order to bring back my confidence to my soul I start writing in my secret keeper (my dairy).