Youth | Lynn Gunn

Chapter Ten

These fading beats
A thousand dreams

"She is still out, she hasn't woken up Lyndsey. We're not sure if she will make it but she can hear us."

"If she doesn't wake up soon, we may have to cut off life support. She can't continue to live like this."

"You have to fight this Miller Dawn, come on."

The light flashed again, i couldn't flinch. I couldn't scream stop, i couldn't make any of the many beeps or sobs stop. I laid in this damn hospital bed, my mother on one side of the room.

Her hand clutching a tissue, my father's crying filled the room. Their hands wrapped around each other as they focused on me in the bed, hooked up to so many machines.

Lynn on the other side on the couch, her hand clutching a small box that contained a ring. One that had been planned to be used so she could propose to me.

Brian and Alex at the edge of my bed as they held in tears, their heads down at the ground as they waited for some sign of life. Something that could change in any minute.

I stood there like a ghost, watching my loved ones. The ones that mattered the most to me wait for some sort of miracle, some sort of good news.

I tried to scream, i tried to make myself move but when you are out of body. You don't have control. You sit in silence, you suffer as you watch everyone fall apart.

It had been like this months, all of these things that i thought had happened. That i had actually beat cancer, that it all turned out good. It was my body's way of coping.

I had dreamed it all, the only thing i haven't dreamed was Lynn, Brian, and Alex. It turns out, they had became big stars. They had actually signed to a label.

My mother just had happened to see Lynn's number on my bedside table, she had seen the teddy bear. Lynn had wrote a song for me, one that had been played over major radio stations.

My mother played it for me while Lynn was touring, i guess it was some sort of hope that i would wake up. I would make it through all of this.

"You need to pull the plug, she has been in this state for almost a month. It can't continue, she is gonna be a human vegetable if she survives this."

"I would suggest you pull the plug m'am. She isn't getting any better."

Many had begged my mother,  many had told her to pull the plug. Days had been passing. There was not any improvement, i was only slowly withering away.

Lynn had been my mothers saving grace, she had been her crying shoulder. Lynn had a hard time showing any type of emotion. I guess a full year of falling for someone and to loose them to some surgery, it's too much.

She would completely crumble at night when my parents had left to go home and get rest. She would beg for me to wake up if it meant i was to stay, but if it wasn't let me go. Let me be one with the sky.

My parents had went home for the night, Brian and Alex had passed out on the couch. Lynn had clutched my hand and rubbed circles as she looked at my face.

Tears falling down as she just took in the whole thing, "Miller. My baby."

Her voice cracked, she cleared her throat as she looked back to me. She opened the box and removed the ring, she slid it on my finger.

"I don't know if you will wake up or not but i want you to have this. I wanted to propose to you. I had left to go home. I was gonna come back and see you, but you had surgery. I just wish you would have told me."

She wiped away the tears, "Miller if you need me to tell you that it's okay to go. It's okay, i love you. I will always love you."

She stood up from the chair as she walked outside of the room. Her back against the wall as she completely fell apart.

The machines began to beep, the heart rates completely going down as Lynn turned to look in the room. Panic sitting in as she screamed for the nurse.