Amnesia|| Luke Hemmings (complete)

Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams,

Lullabies ~ All Time Low

We got back to Ashton's house after the boys all said goodbye. It has been nice to be surrounded by people who don't hate me.

"Stace." Ash says knocking on the door. "Yes?" I call back which he takes as he can open the door. "Can we talk?"  I sigh already knowing where this conversation will be going and just nod running my fingers through my messy blonde hair. "Just speak, tell me how you're feeling Stace. I know you're not happy but remember it's okay to not be okay." He says sitting down next to me and putting his arm over my shoulders. I sigh before starting "I'm scared. It's been a year and we aren't together again. I miss having him around and smiling. I miss the conversations. I feel as if half of my heart is with him and I can't get it back. He would have moved on by now I mean its been a year and all i keep doing is breaking his heart. Ash i have done so many stupid things this last past year and not just to him. To me too." I whisper the last part brings my hands up up to my face. "You are going to give up on your true love just like that? That's not Stace my best friend. My best friend is a girl who never gives up on what she wants. She will always get it and never let anyone get into her way." I sigh looking at him with my broken blue eyes. "That Stacey wasn't broken." My voice cracks on the last word. "No you are not broken. You are damaged and the only one who can fix that is Luke but he can't if you don't let him back in." Ash tells me. "Since when have you been so smart aye Ash?" I ask my best friend and bump his shoulder. "I don't know but i think i just woke up with this talent." He says smiling which makes me laugh. "Oh Ash.. When did i get so lucky to have you as a best friend?" I ask the smiling idiot sitting next to me. "The real question is how did i get so lucky to have you as a best friend." He says standing up and pulling me with him before wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his head on top of mine before whispering "You need to speak with Luke, Stace. You know it."  i sigh and hug him tighter "I know Ash, I do but i'm too scared about what will happen."  I tell him. "oh well because tonight we have a band and family barbeque here so he will be coming therefore you must talk." Ash says with a devilish smile "Go get ready everyone will be here in an hour." He calls out as he leaves my room. Shit! Tonight will be the night i talk to Luke. I really don't want to but i know i have to. 

As i go into the bathroom to get ready i play my music and one of my favourite songs comes on

"Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye

It could be for the last time and it's not right.

"Don't let yourself get in over your head, " he said.
Alone and far from home I'll find you..."

This song has quite a bit of meaning to me now i wish i could find Luke and we could just be together.

"Forever's never seemed so long as when you're not around
It's like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what's left now?"

There is a piece of me missing and it's Luke why did this song have to come on i think as i move onto my eye liner. Now to add mascara then I'm done.

"Can't you see there could have been a happy ending we let go?"

Was there a happy ending Luke and i let go of? I don't really know. I reckon there would have been if we both talked earlier but it's too late to get back together. He has moved on i saw him kissing that model chick.

Sing me to sleep (You've taken so much with you...)
I'll see you in my dreams, (But left the worst with me...),
Waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry."
I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

 He has taken so much when he or I left, I don't really know who did i guess we both did. 

I decide to leave the bathroom now trying not to cry and chose an outfit for tonight.

A happier song comes on now

"Two kids no consequences

Pull the trigger, without thinking
There's only one way down this road"

I love this song as i dance around picking out a white dress which is short at the front and long at the back.

"It was like a time bomb set it in motion
We knew that we were destined to explode
And if I have to pull you out of the wreckage
You know I'm never gonna let you go"

I realized Luke and i were going to break up at some stage i just didn't think it would be so soon but what can i do now?

Enough sad stuff. 

"Stacey, I'm sending Luke up. Good luck." Ashton says coming into my room and hugging me. Oh god it's time. A couple minutes later i hear a knock at the door and Luke comes in. "Hi Stace." He says here it goes... i think as i sigh

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Edited (23/12/14)