All I want is love

Embarassed

  I was inside my  room fiddling through the pages of my secret diary . This diary is with me since I was in seventh grade . I smiled and flipped the pages of my diary  which contained  my  feelings . No one in the house knew about the diary and I didn't even intend in showing the diary to anyone . 

"Hi Zen I'm home! . Prudence screamed and barged into the room.

I was so startled that I fumbled with my diary and it fell down on the ground and Prudence saw it.

" What's this?" she exclaimed as she knelt down to pick it.

I was faster then her and I picked it up and shoved it inside my bag.

" Nothing . Just a diary you see ...... and I have to go to work .See you later honey ."I hugged my bag and kissed her on her cheeks and barged out of the room. 

I had a gut feeling that she was not satisfied by my answer and didn't appreciate my behaviour . And as far as I knew her she will try to find out the diary . Oh shit . When it comes to finding out juicy stuffs,she is Sherlock holmes . Now I have to keep it somewhere safe where Prudence can't get her hands on. 

Oh by the way Prudence is my little sister . She was adopted when her parents died in a car accident when she was ten years old. From then we are together . My parents loved her like their own daughter and tried make me and her more alike so that people could think that we were real siblings. 

Not that I am complaining . I love her and she is my best friend cum sister but after she came into our life everything changed. 

"Where are you off to Zen?" Mariam asked me shaking me out of my thoughts.

"To the office" I smiled at her .

Mariam was our housemaid since I was born .She loved me very much and I loved her too .She didn't have any children so she always looked upon me as her own daughter. Even my own mother didn't bother to care for me that much but it was fine with me considering  she looked after Prudence.

"Have breakfast and go dear."She said.

"I am getting late so I'll grab something on my way . Bye" . Saying that I waved at her .

After ten minutes , I was on my  table finding a file which was supposed to be submitted to the Woodsword company. I was so lost in finding it that I din't realize that someone was standing beside me .

"Looking for something ?" .A voice interrupted me and my heart skipped a beat .

I looked at his side "Roald ? ........I .....actually ."

he chuckled .

" I've got the file  which you are searching for . Take the file from my cabin and go to Woodsword company and submit it to them .  After that we can discuss about the rest of the program. " He answered.

He always made me self- concious . I liked him since childhood but no one knew about it .And I didn't wan't anyone to find about it. Maybe one day I'll muster up the courage to tell him that I'm in love with him but it seemed impossible to me.

"Zen? ....Zen?  . " He called me.

"Oh I'm so sorry .....actually I was thinking about the file " . I lied.

" You always seem to be thinking about something but anyways come to my office and take it." He said it as if he was amused by the thought .

Together we entered his office . He was the CEO of the 'Thomson' Enterprise but he was  always so welcoming and kind . Maybe because we've know n each other since we were born. You heard me right . We were born on the same day 13 May 1994.  Our parents are good friends and so are we. My parents had asked me to join our company the 'Vane'company  but I had denied it  as they were offering me only because Prudence told them to .And then Roald offered me a job in his company which seemed quite good and it was  a good post. I was his PA and I could remain close to him 24*7. 

His office was posh and it was very neat and tidy . Everytime I entered his  office , I could not help but admire it . It was breathtakingly beautiful. And everytime I mention this to my parents , they start descrbing their offices interior desining.

Just thinking about that situation made me chuckle to which Roald turned towards me and stared at me with confused eyes.

"I'm sorry , actually I was thinking about something funny." I quickly replied .

"Maybe someday I'll evade your  mind and read your thoughts".He said more to himself than me.

"Yaya" .I smiled at him.

I was leaning in his table and then he came closer to me . Our bodies touched and I wanted to move away but I couldn't .

"R..Roald what....."I couldn't even complete it then he suddenly picked up a file from the table which was lying behind me.

He laughed and handed me those file.

"Here take those file and don't worry I'm  not  that kind of a person" . He smirked at me'

I took the file and punched his arms .

"Idiot ". I rolled my eyes and walked out of the office while he was laughing out loud.

I became red like a tomato . What was I even thinking ? Why would he even kiss me ?  Uff I'm such a dumbhead. What will he think of me now?.                                                                                                    I shrugged out the feeling and then headed towards the Woodwords Enterprise.