It's been three years... Since I last saw him, the way we parted hurt like hell... I could tell I'm still not over him. He broke up with me telling me he loves another woman.. I cried all day, the next day I still cried.. It felt like crying was all I can do at the moment.. It hurts so much I could feel my heart breaking into pieces.. Then my parents decided to send me to the States. I went to see him for one last time, but he pushed me away...
Too much of a memory.. It feels like it all happened yesterday. Now I'm on my way back home. Magkikita ba kami? Sana hindi.. God I missed this place. I miss my family, my home, my friends.. I miss HIM.. It was clear that he was inlove with another woman.
First things first, I went home and there was a mini celebration. "Welcome Home KC" they hugged me.. I saw my close friends.. It brought me to tears. Damn it felt good.
"Cee, I missed you girl, we have a lot of catching up to do." Sophia, siya nakakaalam ng lahat.
"Same here.. Hmm. Let's hang out?"
"Sounds good to me. When? "
"This Saturday.. I need some rest. haha."
"Sure. Onga baka pagod ka na. Oh siya I have to leave now I still have a date to attend to." and she winked. "Sophia talaga di na nawalan ng date ah? Bye take care."
Party has ended now I'm here at my room. I missed this too. Nothing has changed everything is still where I left them.. It brings back memories.. Slumber party with my girls. Photoshoots (LOL). I walked around the room. I saw my PC, dito.. Dito ko una nakilala si Nathan.. Nagtataka kayo no? We met in the internet. Summer nun. Facebook to be exact. It's funny cause it all started with pasimpleng banats.. Who knew we'd find ourselves in love for real. May 16, 2012 we decided to meet in person.
The distance didn't matter. Hindi pala ganun kalayo ang lugar nila. We met at ATC, sabi niya hanapin ko daw yung pinakagwapong naka-salamin na mukha raw KPOP. I told him I'll be wearing a simple plain white v-neck shirt partnered with black skinny jeans. I thought he was joking nung sinabi niyang gwapo, I couldn't believe my own eyes. I didn't expect him to be so handsome. Pero hindi ako nainlove ng dahil dun.. It was so awkward.. I was so simple tapos siya parang Idol lang.. Not to mention he's part of a band. Typical date, we got to know each other more.
After nun we met every Wednesdays and Saturdays. We officially became a couple..Date dito, date doon.. Holding hands, and my first kiss... Tears started to fall again, memories.. Bittersweet memories started coming back.. I fell down on my knees. Why? Why can't I just move on? He's probably happy now.. Can't I be the same? I stood and lay down on my bed.. Buried my face in the pillow. I actually cried myself to sleep..
It's Saturday andito ako ngayon sa Starbucks, waiting for Sophia.. It felt so nostalgic we used to meet here before going to school.. Everytime I go to Starbucks naalala ko si Sophia. We had the same favorite drink.. Strawberries and Cream Frappuccino.. I can see her getting off her car. She waves at me as she opens the door.
We ordered our all-time favorite. And talked about our lives.. How she failed her subjects, how I found it hard to adapt when I was on my first year in America.
"Cee."
"Hm?" I fed myself with oreo cheesecake.
"Nathan.."
I choked when I heard his name.. She patted me on the back and handed me my Frap..
"Thank you."
"Itutuloy ko pa ba?" she asked.. Di ko alam.. I want to know how is he but at the same time I don't wanna hear about him.. "Sige, ituloy mo.."
