Later that day I had went to get Louis from school. We went to the McDonald's drive thru and got dinner because for the first time in 4 years, I didn't wanna cook dinner for us. That sounds shitty, and it felt even worse. But really, all I wanted to do was sit with Louis & watch him play and smile or watch a movie with him that we've already seen a thousand times. Well we did just that, we watched Batman for the thousandth time & right near the end of the movie the question I knew would come and the question I had been dreading, finally came.
"Mama.. Where's Mawlon?" I giggled still at the pronunciation of "Marlon" by Louis but I knew I had to answer him and that this wasn't a time to be laughing at anything. I crossed my legs & looked at the warm-cheeked little boy sitting just inches away from me with the darkest but loveliest brown eyes.
"Baby, Marlon can't stay with us anymore sweetie. He had to go somewhere and he won't be coming back for a long time. But he told me to tell you that he loves you, very much. And to be a good boy & to brush your teeth every night before bed." I smiled even though my heart broke at the end of that sentence. Those same brown eyes teared up a little just before asking "why mama?" I could no longer smile, and all at once Louis and I just cried together. I held him close to my chest and rubbed his back, and we just cried a little bit. "I don't know Louis," I said; because I DIDNT know. I didn't know why Marlon had to go and do this to not me, but to Louis. "But we're going to be okay. Mama loves you very much and I will always be here with you baby."
He rubbed his eyes and sat up to finish watching the movie. We had both stopped crying and I honestly couldn't tell you why or what it was that made us stop. I really just think we both believed that as long as we had each other we would be okay.
It was getting late & he told me "I'm sleepy, mama." Louis was one with not too much to say, but when he did say something, he meant it. So we walked upstairs together and I tucked him into bed. We read the book "If You Give A Mouse A Cookie" because it was one of his favorites; and shortly after when the mouse was finally satisfied, I kissed him goodnight and crept out of his room as his tired eyes fell fast asleep.
I wasn't tired yet, and I should've been after today but I just couldn't bring myself to go to sleep. So I went into my room and turned on the TV. One of my favorite shows was on - "This Old House" a home improvement show I had fallen in love with, and that did a pretty good job keeping me occupied for half an hour.
I went downstairs to get some ice cream; typical of me.
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The rest of the night is kind of a blur, I just remember eating ice cream and getting a text message from someone I hadn't spoken to in awhile.
Keanu Reeves.
: "Hey Sandy, it's Keanu just incase you lost my number or something 😉. How are you?"
: "Hey Keanu, I'm okay. Could be better could be worse! Haha how are you?"
: "I've been pretty good, actually. I wish you were too but I heard about what happened with you and Marlon and I can't imagine you would be okay after that."
: "You heard already!?"
I actually laughed-out-loud because it's amazing what the public can find out in just a matter of hours.
: "People talk. Doesn't matter though. I miss you yanno! Let's meet up?"
I specifically remember smiling after reading this because truth is, I had missed him too. A lot.
: "Okay, sure. When and where?"
: "What about tomorrow? And I know you've got Louis to take care of so what works for you?" Breakfast, lunch, dinner?"
I laughed. I could hear him saying it in that snide but sexy voice he always spoke in.
: "Lets do dinner, 7;30?"
: "Sounds good to me!"
: "okay." He texted back
: "okay." I replied
: "You're beautiful." He replied back with a "see you tomorrow" shortly after.
I never texted back. But he was beautiful too. In a manly, sexy sort of way of course.
I put down my phone, turned out the light & fell asleep to the voice of the woman on the infomercial.
I wasn't sure what was gonna happen with Keanu & I, but I was excited to see him and be with him again.
No doubt about it.
