After Dunkirk

Chapter 18

Georgia POV
Alex has been calling me nonstop the past couple of days but I just can't do it right now.

Part of me wants to hear what he has to say but the other half knows it's probably just a bunch of bullshit and excuses.

I haven't even talked to any of his family since the whole ordeal went down.

I'm guessing Alex must have told them or something cause Gemma and Anne have called me a couple times too.

I'm not mad at them or anything, I have no reason to be but I know the topic of discussion would just be Alex and I don't want to hear or talk about him right now.

He slept with some other girl and I just don't get how you can claim to love someone and go off and fuck someone else.

And here I find myself back feeling all alone again.

How is it that you can miss and love someone so much but at the same time hate them with every inch of you?

He just makes him so angry sometimes and he stresses me out and I just can't deal with it.

I'm trying to be there for him but then he goes off and does stuff like this and makes it harder on everyone.

I know deep down thatI do still love him and that that's why all of this is so hard to deal with but I just don't know if we'll work it out or not because I just know that I don't want to keep feeling like this.

Right now I just need time to cool off from all of that and start focusing getting ready for the baby because right now I'm not even in the slightest prepared.

Alex and I were supposed to go shopping for some stuff but of course that won't be happening anytime soon, so I guess this one will just have to be left up to me.

Only thing is now I'm stressing because I don't know where I'm going to come up with the money I'm need for all of this stuff.

My mom keeps telling me that it's fine and she'll help me out but I don't want her to be the one to help me out. She's already done enough by just letting me stay here and besides this isn't her child, it's mine and I need to take responsibility of the situation and try and do as much of it on my own as possible.

I'm not trying to empty out my entire savings account but trying to buy everything I need on my own but at the end of the day I'll do whatever I have to do.

This is all just so stressful.

And it's even harder when your doing it on your own.

Alex POV
I've been trying to get in touch with Georgia for the past couple of days but won't even talk to me.

I can't blame her for being angry with me because I'd be too if I were in her position, but I just wish she'd talk to me and hear me out.

I fucked up and that's just it. I should have never let it ever happen.

I wanted to tell her, I really did but I just didn't want to cause her anymore damage than what I already had.

I didn't think that anyone that knew about it would ever get back to her, so I thought I had some time to buy to figure out my approach and how I could tell her.

This is all just a fucked up situation.

But on top of all that my therapist is pushing for me to go ahead off to the rehabilitation center and I don't have much time left to decide because they need definite answer by this Friday.