All I've ever strives to be is a good person.
Turns out I wasn't. I'm a hypocrite, a self centered annoyance, a really shit friend.
And I'm sorry
I'm so so sorry
To everyone I've ever been friends with
To everyone I've ever spoken with I'm sorry.
So so damn sorry.
I thought I was getting better I was fucking wrong. I'm upset and feel alone because. I don't want to keep going on like this. I'm so sorry. Unbelievably sorry I can't keep being what I am because I hate who I've become. I hate that I'm overly annoying, that I sound like a fucking airhead all the time, like I have no common sense, I hate I have a tendency to overthink and ruin everything for everyone. I'm sorry to all my friends who just got tired of my shit. I'm sorry to the friends I didn't help when the needed it. And to the one I judged too harshly for a long time and now I just want back in my life because she understood. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I can't breath I want this feeling to end I'm so fucking sorry
I need help please before I refuse to take it
I want to get better I promise I do
But I can't apparently
All I do is screw up in the end
I so badly want to get better but I can't
I can't
I really can't what the hell is wrong with me
I'm sorry everyone please forgive me
