Elle

Chapter 5

And Then again,I don't know what to say nor do I know what to think, I am just speechless.
I ended up sleeping it off. I found myself Awake at 4 am. I went down stairs to get a drink of water,I am just really stress that's all, I mentally say to myself. As I walk down stairs, I can hear my mom talking loudly, not quite yelling, but loud. I picked up most of what she said. "NO! Raider. I told you to do one fucking thing, and what did you do? You screwed around. I swear to god I will cut your-"

"Mom who are you talking to" I intuited her conversation that she was having on the phone. She hangs off the phone and says "no one, why are you doing up?"
She sounds mad like always. I ignored it."I just needed water" I exclaimed. I pour the water in to the glasses,as I start to drink it her phone hangs again. She declined it and looks up at me. "Why did Cassie leave so early yesterday?" She asks with a wicked grin. Instead of telling her what happened, I shrugged. "What-" she stops when her phone hangs again.She cruse underneath her breath while turning it off. I could be asking her so many questions right now but they are the least of my worries. I went back to my room and fell asleep.

A month later..

Everyday I spend in this house makes me even more crazy. This summer is not all like I planned. I planned on going to the movies and screaming my head off with Cassie while we ride the roller coasters together, but here I am: bored, sad, stressed, and mad. I have nothing to keep me company besides my thoughts, which is killing me slowly. I still think back to that day, I still get the flash backs, and All I do is break down.

Is she really going to publish the story? Why would she do that to me? Am I ever going to feel the courage to drive a car again? Just thinking makes me wanna cry. Would I ever stop crying? I just don't want to feel anymore.  Stop it Samantha, you're better than this! You start your junior year tomorrow, get it together! I mentally say to my self.

I am nervous as I am scare, but I have to suck it up and prepare myself for the worst. Like everyone do: pick an outfit for a week. Check. I usually get my stuff ready while I FaceTime Cassie, but that's not going to happen. Should I just be the bigger person and-

"SAMANTHA." My mom yells, bringing me out of my thoughts."Coming." I said running down stairs.

Oh. Was my reaction.

It's my step grandmother.

She hates me more then my step mother does. And I still don't have a explanation for why they hate me so much.

"Samantha!" My grandmother said with a fake smiling.

"Hi grandma." Trying my best to sound excited but it's far from excited. I sound disappointed. Why it could've been chris brown or The fray but noo here is my irrelevant grand mother.

She gives me a shook look when she sees my frown. "I got you something." She said   Ignoring it. She gives me a bag.
Please be a bomb, please!

Nope. Just a boring ass necklace.

"What is this for" I asked.
"Samantha!"  My mom yells

"What..?" I replied back

She sighs " I'm sorry she's been moody lately." She tells her than She gave me one of her Stop it look.

"It's a good luck necklace."

'Seriously?' I say in my head but only in my head.

"Oh." Was the only thing I could think of to say that wasn't rude.
"Come on, put it on"
I did what she said.

The neck lace was sliver and had a circle shape in the middle. Nothing interesting really..

I fake smile again. " thanks grandma,I love it." She returns the smile.
She fell for it.
"It was my mother's. It looks good on you though. It will help you through the bad times just like it helped me."
"Thanks"I wrap my hand around her. "Awww you're welcome, I Brought brandy. She keeps talking about how she wants to see you and all, so I just had to tag her along." She softly laugh.

Oh great. Another disappointment.

Brandy walks through the double door wearing a pink shirt and black leggings, with her brown-straight hair down. She might look cute and all but she's annoying as fuck. She acts innocent around adults but around me she's not even close to innocent. Don't judge a book by its cover!

She gives the fakest big smile and runs over to me and wraps her hand around my stomach very tightly.  "Okay you can let go now." I say padding her back gently. "Can you guys go upstairs I need to talk to grandma" my mom said

We walk up stairs to my room and immediately Brandy jumps on my bed which had my clothes folded neatly on it. I shut the door behind me. "What the hell brandy, get off!" I yell at her.
"Oh is this what you're going to wear tomorrow?" She said raising my jeans up in the air. "Brandy stop, I'm not in the mood for your games." I said snatching my pair of jeans out of her hand. "You're no fun."
"SO WHY DID YOU COME HERE THEN?" I yell as I refold my clothes. "because grandma is really boring, she keeps giving me stupid unnecessary lectures." I let out a small laugh.
"Do you have a boyfriend." She asks with a wicked smile.

"No-"
"Of course you don't." She interrupts then laughs.

I roll my eyes. I am too uninterested and stress to waste my breath on her.
"You should curl your hair."she says out of nowhere.
"I should?" I asks while I walk over to my dresser.
"Yeah, it will make all the boys want you."
With that being said,I am laughing so hard. I could feel my face turn red. "What?! I'm serious." She said getting defensive.
"Brandy you're only 12 calm down."

"Whatever grandma has already ruin my childhood when I walked in the bathroom on her. Ugh that was disgusting." She said shaking her head. I laugh at her expression.

..3 hours later

Brandy and my grandmother has already left and I am getting ready for bed. I took a shower and hopped into my pajamas.
When I laid down on to my bed, it all hit me. All the thoughts and flash backs came rushing through my head.

Sorry for the bad chapter🙈

I promise that the next chapter will be better❤️

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