I'm Scared...

Heart Broken

It was the best feeling ever...

Being in love.

I know it's rich but I know what it feels like. You can't describe it but it feels amazing. Having someone there who feels the same about you, cares for you and is there for you literally whenever you need them.

But all that's gone now. 

It was a while back, when we were still together, he was away and I was at my friends' house for a project. She was fooling around on my phone and talking to this guy and he happened to send a picture of his abs... So I told my close friend K. K was probably jealous or angry at me or something but something in her brain wasn't right. The next day she goes and tells my boyfriend that I'm cheating! AND he believes her! Like what the hell?

Then he breaks up with me over text and doesn't hear me out! At this point, I can't help crying as I'm flustered and don't know what to do. Eventually, I phone my best friend E because I'm home alone. She talks to me for at least an hour before my dad comes home. In that time we try to work out what the hell just happened. I message K, I try messaging him and phoning him but he just blows me off and gets angry at me.

I'm balling my eyes out and he doesn't care.

The love of my life is gone.

I'm alone.

My father comes home and runs down the stairs to find me in a heap. 

Weeks pass.

I talk to new people but still feel so empty inside, I still have no one. Even if other boys say they like me I can't bring myself to accept their confessions because I know I don't have feelings for them. 

Only him.

I message him. We talk and catch up... He tells me that he still loves me. I have hope and I tell him how much I've missed him and that I love him more than anything or anyone else in the world. But then he changes his mind. Ripping my heart out again.

It's been months.

Months of meaningless conversations.

Different schools... I can't help but wonder who he's meeting... I bet she's better than me, prettier than me, not me...