hi. i am coming to you guys with sadness. that probably doesnt even make sense. i am tired, both mentally and physically. i feel like there is no one to hold my hand if i get depressed or sad or upset. i feel like they just judge me by looks or by rumors. i want someone to hold me close and tell me things like "it will be just fine. i'm here for you." "i love you" "i'm here to listen." not just by my parents and family, but by someone else, a friend, a partner (that i'll probably never have.), because it feels like people are forced to say that, not that they actually feel it. i am sorry for saying this, but i feel like i need to be straight up with you guys.
i don't want anybody to think that i am trying to show off my depression and sadness because that's not what i'm trying to do. i am simply trying to be real instead of pretending to be happy when i'm really not.
thanks for taking the time to read this. i love you all,
gabrielle <3
