the boy~ Jimin Fan fiction

chapter 6

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I wake up with tear stains on my pillow... Its Sunday morning and i don't feel like getting up. I feel broken. I know its a stupid thing to be this upset about but i really love Jimin and for him to yell at me like that just brings my self esteem all the way back down. Anyways yesterday we all exchanged numbers and started a big group chat. Jimin has been talking in it like nothing happened.

How can he do that? Does he really not care at all?

I already told Hannah and Taylor about what happened they said they would try to talk to him. I'm so thankful for them. I really dont know what happened with Jimin. I feel like its all my fault. Anyways I've been texting Yoongi for help. Yoongi is really nice and actually has interest in what i say. I mean Taehyung does too but i just cant have a serious conversation with him because he gets distracted very easily. I ate breakfast and felt better after talking to Hannah, Taylor, and Yoongi. Yoongi wanted to hangout and go get coffee and i agreed.

Yoongi: hey would you be ready at 5 to go get coffee?

Me: sure are you gonna pick me up or give me an address?

Yoongi: I'll pick you up

Me: ok see you soon

Yoongi: ;)

Its 3:30 now so i have time. I text Hannah and Taylor to tell them what my plans are like all best friends do.

Me: hiii im going to get coffee with Yoongi today

Taylor: oop she's already moving on from mr small hands.

Hannah: girl what

Me: nono i still like Jimin even though he's being rude. Yoongi is just a friend.

Taylor: mhm sure Jimin is gonna be jealous

Me: why would he? I don't think Jimin would care.

Hannah: idk have fun though

Me: I'll try

I have 30 minutes before Yoongi will be here. I'm not nervous because its just Yoongi and we are just friends. Anyways i get dressed in ripped black jeans, a sweatshirt, and combat boots.
I do barely any make-up because i dont care and i leave my hair down. When i finish getting ready its 4:50. Yoongi should be here soon I'll just watch this one kpop video.
I hear a knock on my door and its Yoongi. "Hi are you okay?" He says and i immediately remember the events of yesterday. I stay silent for a few seconds. "Um not really to be honest." I decided to be honest with Yoongi since he's been so nice to me. "Is it because of Jimin? I don't think he actually meant that.. you should talk to him tomorrow at school." I look at him and nod. He's right i should try to talk to him.
We are now at the coffee shop and its actually so cute i order mocha iced coffee and Yoongi orders an iced americano. "Do you like Jimin or something?" His straightforward question catches me off guard and i almost spit out my coffee. "Um what do you mean?" I say coughing. "Do you like Jimin more than a friend? Like do you want to date Jimin?" I hesitate before speaking. "Uhm yes, Yoongi i do like Jimin" i look down quickly "but Jimin wouldn't like someone like me. I just annoy him. Im only his friend or 'friend' because i help him get good grades." I gasp quietly at my words and the hurtful truth they hold.

Man i want to go home and cry and never leave my bed. I don't want to see Jimin tomorrow at school. Jeez im so stupid for ever thinking i had a chance with him because i do not.

"Hey don't say that.. I'm sure Jimin wants to be your friend maybe he was just going through something and snapped on you." I look at him and stare at his calm eyes and his effortless charisma making me feel safe and that i can tell him anything. "Yeah i dont know Jimin will never like me.." i look down and take a sip of my coffee. "Wanna go to the park down the road and just talk and think?" Yoongi offers. "Yes that would be nice but not too late we have school tomorrow." I say laughing at myself. We finish our coffee and walk down to the park. Its really cold outside tonight it's a good thing i wore warm clothes. The streets are really crowded for some reason. A guy bumped into me and almost made me get separated from Yoongi. Because of this Yoongi grabs my hand and we hold hands until we reach the park.
What. Just. Happened. I feel weird. Yoongi is just a friend. I repeat Yoongi is just a friend.
We finally reach the park and i run up the hill and Yoongi slowly walks his way up the hill. I smile at the old grandpa that is Yoongi taking his sweet time. "What I'm tired after walking all the way here." I roll my eyes and sit down on top of the hill. Yoongi sits next to me and he gets a text from the boys wondering where he is. I see Yoongi tell them that he's with me and that we just went for coffee and to talk.

Thank you Yoongi for being honest and telling them that youre actually with me.

I can see what they are texting about and Jimin says "why are you with her? Dont you have anything better to do?" My heart drops i suddenly have the urge to run all the way home and cry even more. Yoongi looks at me and notices that I've been reading the conversation and definitely read what Jimin said. "Hey- look i dont know what going on with him i-" I look at him and start to cry "Jimin will never like me. Im pathetic. He doesn't care about me. I want to go home please Yoongi." I say while crying. Yoongi hugs me and just holds me for a little while. "Okay.. I'll take you home. Im so sorry it must be some misunderstanding there must be a reason he's acting this way..." He says while caressing my hair.
Yoongi drives me back home and says goodnight and tells me to get rest. "I'll see you tomorrow.. don't stay up too late. Text me if you need me." I nod "Okay. Thank you Yoongi.. i really appreciate you being there for me." I half smile and close my front door and bolt up to my room to avoid conversation with my mom or my brother.

Jimin why? I've been nothing but nice to you.. did you really only use me for my knowledge and study skills? I feel stupid and embarrassed.

I don't text anyone and just go straight to sleep dreading what will come when i wake up and go to school.

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Ah yes Yoongi is so nice don't worry things will get clearer in the next chapter~