two years changed

sudden adjustments

River of tears by alessia cara on spotify.

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Naruto spent the next few mornings cursing sasuke and wondering why people called it morning sickness when it happened throughout the day. She tried as hard as she could not to think of him when this happened.

Sometimes she'd go to talk to him, expect him to sneak in through her window like he used to, she'd feel a ghost wrap a arm around her or fingers drawing patterns into her skin. She hated every minute of it. She wrote a letter for every month, filling it with anger, sadness even the soft moments of what could have been.

Tears fell onto the paper sinking in as if to bring him some of her emotion, as water color stained the water when you dipped the paintbrush into it. She hated it, she hated the way she missed him, the way she wanted him to hold her, to see the look on his face as he saw their beautiful baby. What she hated the most was knowing it never could happen, because every month the latter came back unopened and stained with red.

Kurama tried to console her, make her laugh or distract her... but that's always what it was a distraction, a passer by on a street, moving on briefly as if the moment before didn't even exist.

What would she tell the kid?
How could she look someone so little in the eyes and explain their father would even know they exist because he didn't care about her enough to open on letter or answer any calls?

She hated sasuke uchiha, but she hated herself more for still loving him.
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Sasuke marvelled at her persistence as he inked the red words into the newest letter he received, honestly would she ever give up?

He never expected this constant agitation to last 3 straight months. He thought he had made himself perfectly clear a uchiha needs more elegance and clear minded partners.
Itachi has someone like that.

Yet he still found himself haunted by her kind blue eyes, her laugh and her bright nature. The memorys of watching her dance in the sun on the beach, golden hair floating seamlessly   in the wind. The way she drew him into the water, school clothes and all. The warmth of the memorys sent pain straight to his heart.

He thought he would die of this pain

Sometimes he wished he could forget her.

But then he remembered again, and so he clutched those memorys to his heart as closely as he could.

He chuckled ruefully, he truly was a greedy man.

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She officially knew something was up,  3 months in and she looked like she ate a beach ball.

Sakura had been trying to drag her out of her house since she started growing at such a noticible rate, she started gaining at least a pound each week since discovering her pregnancy.

Throwing on her brothers police station shirt and a pair of loose sweatpants couldn't hide anything anymore. She called her best friend in submission "fine you win, pick me up..."

Needless to say sakura left skid marks on the road as she arrived at Narutos house.  " drive better with me in the car please.... don't let my unborn child face the wrath of your terrible driving" the pink haired girl glared and pointed to her dashboard , where a sticker very clearly stated 'but did you die?' In elegant writing. " for a doctor one would think you'd drive safer..." the blonde muttered as she put on her seatbelt.

"Any word for sasuke?" Th he pink haired girl asked as her friend stared out the window. " what's the point in talking about it when kurama probably told you on one of your dates already." The pink haired girl sighed " he dosent talk about anything you don't want him too, even to me.... I'm sorry this happened to you naru" sakura gently soothed. Naruto was grateful to have her, her bestfriend had stood up for Naruto when she was a kid for being a tom boy and Naruto had done the same when the kids went after Sakura for having a big forehead which kurama would agree with her, sakura had grown into. Sakura was there for them when the anniversary of their parents death had rolled around and every year after, Naruto was happy that kurama had asked her pale haired friend out when they entered high school as freshman, and even more thankful when he asked her to marry him at graduation, even if that day had been horrible for her.

The car stopping pulled Naruto out of her daze and she and sakura left the small silver car. " kurama said you both finally picked a date when is it?" Naru started trying to think happier thoughts. "April 25th, so we can see the flowers and maybe we'll beable to have your baby as the ring bearer, if that's alright with you of course" sakura's face turned the shade of her hair causing naru to laugh " of course sakura, I'm sure he or she would love too " naruto's heart skipped a beat thinking about the arrival of her baby, even the fact that she would beable to hold her or him. It seemed to finally hit her in that moment.

It would be her and the baby, and she would have to do it all by herself. Tears started falling down her face and sakura , clearly panicked managed to calm her down after an hour and alot of soothing words

They managed to make it inside the store and look at a few things, sakura pulling many pink dresses on the pile of things to try on.

A blue and white dress caught her eye as she was walking through the store ( really in attempt to escape sakura.)

Naruto managed to dodge sakura and retreat into the dressing room with the dress.  She always felt silly in dresses, insisting they never suited her, sasuke agreed of course so she stopped looking at them. With that thought whatever resolve against trying it on faded away.

The material was light and soft against her skin, the mirror reveled her figure to be that of an elegantly dressed women, someone older then her, more mature then the last time she looked in the mirror, her hair longer and falling softly to her butt. She wasn't taller but she could see she wasn't as awkward as she had been at graduation, losing whatever baby fat had remained. The dress made her skin look paler and more elegant then she felt she ever had looked. She let her eyes fall to the bump in her abdomen, she looked pregnant , at 3 months this was to be expected
But it seemed to surprise her yet again.

She bought the dress along with some warmer clothes as the season brought colder winds and harsher weather.
She felt better then she did at home... She knew that she needed to start looking into something more for her child and her.

When she got home she started looking up houses in the area close to her brother and her college.

She was ready to make the adjustments needed.
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Hi guys, sorry took so long to update!

Please vote or pitch one of your own with the meanings!!

Boy:

Hikaru-shining brilliance

Hisashi- always with you

Kazumi- beautiful peace

Kosuke- rising sun

Girl:

Mikoto-life, beautiful, harp

Chika- scattered flowers