The death of me.

Chapter 1 ~ Betrayal

I hear the sounds of the gunshots. Repeating non stop in my brain. The blood that is all over my clothes. And a mascara trial all over my face. He is gone. I failed. Again. ''NO NO NOOOO''. I woke up with tears in my eyes and sweaty clothes. Gosh this has to stop and really fast. That day is haunting me everywhere, when I am working, eating, sleeping. The horrible images in my head. They just won't go away.

''Mom where is my coffee.'' I yelled while I ran down the big stairs of our house.  ''It is in the kitchen and stop yelling godamn I am not deaf.'' She was sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of tea and the daily newspaper. ''I am sorry mom I am just running late and I can not turn up at school.'' She glanced over at me with the I told you to get out of bed early face ''Hurry up then I told you to get out of bed early but you are just to stubborn and lazy.'' She rolled her eyes and continued with reading her newspaper. I took my cup and I quickly jumped in my car and drove to school. I had 10 minutes to go to my locker and then to my first class. I walked in the school and I noticed that something was wrong. Everybody was looking at me with shocked and confused faces. As I looked through the hall I did not see something strange so I just walked to my locker as usual.  My phone buzzed a few times so I grabbed it out of my bag. And what I saw was the most awfull thing ever. My heart shatterd in pieces or what was left of it. I shoved my phone back into my bag and I slammed my locker close. I was angry, upset and most likely dissapointed. I walked through the hall to the backyard of the school. I noticed people were following. They wanted drama and I was going to give them that. ''OLIVIA BLAKE YOU FUCKING BITCH.'' I threw my bag on the ground and I walked over to her. She stood there looking at me with a suprised look on her face. And next to her? My boyfriend with lipstick smudges all over his lips. And they were not from me. He just stood there with this cheepish smile on his face. And the please let me explain look. I just laughed, my life was a serious joke. All of my life I have been betrayed, got lied to and many more things.But being betrayed by my bestfriend and boyfriend was the last thing I expected. ''Olivia and Sin who would have thought that.'' Olivia stutterd for a moment. ''Val, I swear this is not what was supossed to happen.'' My mouth just fell open. '' Well newsflash Olivia it happend. Like are you hearing yourself right now?'' She had tears in her eyes. She regreted it but she already messed up. Big. ''I can not even look at you guys right now.'' I walked away as fast as I could, I had to leave. I sat down in my car to just realize what happend. And the only thing I could think of was, why? Why would they do this to me. Why do bad things always happen to me? The last pieces of my heart were just shatterd, in tiny pieces. I did not even let out a single tear. It just felt like all my feelings and all my emotions just died right there in the spot. No they can not get me like this. I will not show that I am hurt in anyway or that this bothers me. I picked up my bag from the passenger seat and I stepped out of my car and walked to my class.