FORBIDDEN LOVE

THE LOVE I USED TO CALL MY LIFE

ZAYN'S POV

If I knew that this was how it was going to end I wouldn't have fallen for her.Right now is aching as if someone did something, oh, I almost forgot, someone did do something.They broke it.I love her so much that the thought of her makes me cry every time..But now I know that I have to say our last goodbye,I'll go to her wedding..

I still remember the first time she said she loved me,I saw it in her eyes,it wasn't expected for us to fall in love but we did.Now I'm afraid we fell in too deep..I have too much love in my heart and it has always been for her,her only . I now honestly think that the perfection of love is that it's not always perfect.

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REINA'S POV

I still can't believe that a month has already ended, January came in too fast,does it already want me to get married?does it want me to forget the love of my life?
The love of my life,my Zayn, the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.But I'm doing it for my mom who is getting better because she's receiving the best treatment..

Just as I'm about to leave my mother's room she decides to wake up."Reina?"She calls for my name.

"Mother, how are you feeling? "I ask her the same question I've been asking her for the last few days.

"I feel better than I look."she smiles at her answer and she sees the sadness in my eyes.

"It's ok honey,I'll be fine..Your birthday is coming up,what are you planning to do?"She simply asks me and my heart wants to leap out of my chest.I haven't told my mother that I'm getting married in order to help her,she wouldn't want me to ruin my life because of her condition.

"I'm not planning anything big mom,I hardly know anyone here."I answer her.

"Why do you always come to my room and cry and say you're doing it for me?"She asks me again.

"Nothing mom,I just miss you and just the thought of you leaving me drives me crazy."I half lie to her,I know that's not the whole truth but I'm really scared of losing my mother..

"I'll be fine soon honey,I'm as strong as an ox..Come here."She comforts me in her warm arms.

"Please don't leave me mom."I beg her while I cry.

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That afternoon when I finished talking to my mother I went to talk to Rox as we are not on good terms with each other . she's still angry about me getting married and I need to make her understand.

"If it isn't Mrs Spencer to be."She mocks me as I enter her room for the next few days..

"Are you still mad at me?"I ask her even though I know the answer to my question.

"Mad, no I'm not mad,I'm just disappointed in myself . I'm sorry that I couldn't see it,I'm sorry that I didn't support your decisions in this whole thing.I wasn't really the best friend you needed, I nursed Zayn's broken heart I forgot about yours."She says with tears on her eyes and my heart shrinks.

"Zayn understood you and I wasn't able to do that,I'm sorry Ree. "She apologises and I finally moved from my spot to give my best friend a hug.

"I'm glad that you came to your senses, I'm also sorry that I never told you. "I say to her while we are still wrapped up in each others arms.

I'm glad that she now sees things from my view,I needed her and the thought of losing her petrified me . she's more of a sister to me than a best friend, and I love her to death.

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The next morning everything was going so well,Rox has forgiven me and I have my mother's blessing to save her life.
Maybe things won't be so bad after all,maybe Liam won't be so bad , maybe I'll be happy as Zayn wishes.

I'm busy lying in my bed looking at the celling and counting the shining blocks.As I'm busy being hallucinated by the celling a knock on the door brings me back to the real world. I wake up from my state and sit at the edge of the bed to see who's knocking.
A beautiful brown haired boy enters my room and my heart instantly stops,he looks so beautiful and hurt and miserable and painful at the same time.

Zayn is actually here,in my room and I can hear his breathing , I can actually see him.

"Surprised? I know, I just needed to see you before Friday. "He says while he steps further into the room.

"Say something, I need to hear your voice. "He says.

I stand up from the edge of the bed and I look at him.I don't even know what to say to him,I have missed him so much that all is wanna do is kiss him and hug him.I want to be close to him.And before I could stop myself I'm wrapping my arms around him.He still smells of my favourite scent.

"I missed you so much."Are the only words I was able to alter with tears in my eyes.

He also wraps his arms around me,"I missed you too. "

We silently stay in that same spot for what seems like hours until we unwrap from our hug.We look at each other and I see tears in his eyes,I want to take his pain away right now, but I can't, I can't because I'm feeling that same pain he is..I guess love does come to us broken,and we were never able to fix ours.Right now he's just the love I used to call my life.