Warrior inside

suicide

Her eyes grew wider as she attempts going straight ahead towards the headlights the emotions of fear and anger combined thus getting the best of her positive thoughts

As the strangers headlights meets with hers, immediately injuring herself
Unsuccessful at that moment,
She succeeds in killing the other person not her intentions now she will live with unbearable guilt

She rustles her way out of the crush, upside down vehicle standing up crooked

Walking away with a broken leg and a busted face she begins to second guess searching for help

"What will they say?" She dare to think
Starring at the tiny bone In her leg that is exposed screaming out loud
Bringing attention to this unpleasant scene

Quickly as she possibly could with a broken leg she tries making her own way to the hospital
Only to encounter multiple Problems along the way, bumping into things, tripping and falling

she rushes to grab  onto anything that would keep her upright

Fortunately, a Nice stranger ofter her a Ride to the hospital nearest
Gently stepping out as the person
Whilst driving to there destination

A question was brought up by the stranger
"What happened?"
Such a simple question to accompany a simple answer

only given that she failed at a suicide attempt and ended with murder
Although this was extremely overwhelming the thought of explaining otherwise was much more terrifying to her

"It was all an Accident " her reply

"Sorry this happened to you" the polite stranger said
Shortly after they arrive to the hospital

Guiding her into the way, the strangers parts ways with her at this point

As she looks in through the hospital glass doors taking her final action
Reaching towards the handle
Heart rate spending by so quickly
A slight ring of bells fill her head
Along followed the dizziness
Using the last of her strength to grab the handle and open it, immediately falling to floor out with a loud wail of true pain

Quickly rushing over to the girl
They waste no time getting her to the room she'll be staying after they bandage and stitch her leg and face

They leave for hours of rest
Though it's quite difficult to fall asleep having been through such a terrible attempt gone wrong, whilst she tries to fall asleep all she think about is "why am I not dead?"

"Why did I do this" over and over these thoughts never rest

depriving her sleep, haunting the walls of her mind

Sitting up right looking straight ahead towards the door in front of the eyes of horror.. only thinking the worse of what could happen, three doctors step inside

Startled she was than by a fast surprise she already expected.. she analyzes their movements as one of them speaks unhesitatingly about the reck
She glances at the two on her right and left than the one directly in-front of her

She mumbles "it was a mistake"

One suggest to be more honest
Nervous now they suspect only one idea of what happen what happen they want rest until she is Completely honest

compelled to speak

"Tell us what happen.. the truth"
One of three asks

Thinking to herself
Every once and awhile there are recks
Why was mine so Obvious?
Than another thought occurred

Slowly titling her head downwards to her arms, she realizes her arms are exposed.. exposed scars and fresh cuts

Shy to speak and terrified to be honest
She sees no other than getting out than to confess

"I Meant for a suicide attempt but mistakenly crashed into the other person cars" she reply's in a uneasy, shaky voice

"Why did you want to kill yourself?"
One of three asks

These are the ones quickly pushing her to the edge of suicide

It's when you become infected

It's rare to have a big heart in a cold, dark world but brave she was to try and spread positivity it only went so far to a point that doubt came back

But there was something odd she thought. The world is doomed
Darkness is endless and it has chosen to cover the earth with its chaos and rage

Like a virus you cannot see
Inhaling it as the very air you don't see or notice not even a slight change a heart... yet, you realize it when you look  back at when the black shadow didn't linger-over the universe

A virus so deadly to those who haven't yet caught
There will be no peace, no loyalty no trust left to give or take

Nothingness so it seems but having experiences with mental wars she was not one to give up, in the past there people who she depended on and trusted though she went through many dangers and took many risks

And went through serious damage to her soul no one knowledge her strength of overcoming. this confused and made her feel overwhelmingly stressed but a new positive energy entered  allowing her to she what she couldn't before connected with the world and nature

She knew she was a warrior
Like any warrior she wouldn't give up

A long lasting happiness is seemly impossible to find or a thought to become motivated to overcome doubts and fears

No battle cannot be won without hope and belief all the things she needed already lied within her

She continues to banish the negativity
The rails of the path she's on
Is the path to happiness

It all suddenly flashes back into the room she was being kept in at the hospital.. thinking quick deeply,

The question that was desperately needing an answer

It wasn't the mass of power the darkness held on everyone, it was why Did the darkness chose this planet?, why did it spread its Toxic disease

In the mental and spiritual sense, It all seems to hit rock bottom once you're a victim of this virus though you aren't aware

It's the quietness of rising your soul without permission, the emptiness and no remorse, the darkness burying itself in your heart and brain draining what little color you have left in it

It's the pleasure of nothing but destroying..you cannot see what exactly is wrong

It without a warning welcomes itself to swallow you whole while you roam the earth violently changing into a monster

Infecting the pure