My life BTS X Male reader

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I sat at the ledge of the city bridge, I come here when I feel like shit. I looked over the view of the dark sky, the city lights lightly burning my eyes, I suddenly had the urge to jump off.

I saw someone running towards me, and looked down, I ignored the person and jumped off, the last thing I had seen was a blonde male.

(Time skip) I woke up in a hospital bed, I looked around the room and saw a blonde male, he was asleep.... Was he the one who saved me...? I get out of the hospital bed.

I carefully walked on the cold marble hospital floor, my feet freezing badly. 'How the fuck did they take my shoes off?' I saw my shoes across from me, I grabbed them and put them on, I also saw my clothes.

I dressed fastly wanting to get out of here and continue what I started, as I was done getting dressed, my converse clicked against the floor as I walked, causing me to run.

As I almost made it to the door, someone grabbed my wrist, I felt my heart stop, I looked back slowly in shock and fear.

The blonde male was the one who grabbed me, he spoke. "Your coming with me." He spoke in a comforting voice, I grabbed away my wrist and backed away eventually bumping into the hospital walls.

I looked at him confused, as I sunk onto the hospital floor, no one had ever said that before, or worried for that matter, I asked him. "W-why did you save m-me...?" I asked hugging my knees staring at the white marble floor of the hospital.

I stared at him with a gentle gaze, waiting for an answer, I fiddled with my fingers, he responded. "I saved you because, no one deserves to die in such a horrid way.... Like suicide." I stared at him, warm tears spilling out of my eyes.

I got up and ran towards him, I pulled him into a hug, my tears spilling onto his soft hoodie. I whispered, "Thank you.." I wiped my tears, and pulled away, the blonde male looked surprised but relieved.

(Time skip until they go to meet bangtan~) I looked outside the black vans window, Jiminnie told me I would be staying with him, and his group.

I was sitting next to jiminnie, I asked him. "Jiminnie where are we going?" I whispered to jiminnie, he said. "We're going to our dorms." He said looking at me with a smile.

(Time skip until they get to the dorms) I exited the black van, I shivered as the cold wind hit me, but I delt with it. When I got to their dorms, Jiminnie introduced them to me, I whispered shyly, "H-hello... I-I'm (M/n).." They all looked at me smiling, "Hello!" Their friendly aroma was comforting, "I'm Jungkook!" Yelled a dark brown haired boy, "IM TAEHYING!" a blonde boy yelled even louder.

(Time skip two weeks) Its been two weeks since I've been here... I had warmed up to all of the bangtan members, getting into deep thought, I sat on their fluffy couch.

I wondered for a moment... Do the bangtan members know I was... Trying to well.. do the thing...? Suddenly, something popped into my head.

(Flashback)
Third person
"Get back here brat!" Your father yelled and ran after you, you had smashed one of his beer bottles on him in anger, you kept running, your father eventually catched up to you and grabbed you by the neck, he threw you against the hard concrete, you sobbed as he kept on punching you blood oozing out of your cheek, your whimpers and sobs unheard by your sick and abused mother, who was in your house, and would usually try to stop your abusive father.
(Flashback ends)

I immediately ran to their restroom, my eyes watered, my stomach was burning and throbbing, my legs felt like they were getting stabbed.

I grabbed my dagger from my left pocket, I cut my arms fast, my arms bleed out like a river, I cut my legs from my ripped jeans, my heart was racing faster and faster, I ripped off my shirt and cut across my stomach spelling mistake.

I let out a blood curdling scream. I felt like I was on fire, but somehow I liked it, I heard steps coming towards the restroom, I panicked before I could get bandaids, someone opened the restroom door, I stayed still, I sobbed into my hands, whimpering.

I heard the door slam open, I looked up to see, all the bangtan members... Yoongi, hoseok, jin, Jiminnie, namjoon, jungkook, and taehyung, they ran towards me like there was no tommarow.

I almost passed out, jimin cried on my shoulder, he whispered "Why did you do this?!" I sobbed harder as I yelled, "I CUT MYSELF BECAUSE I HATE MYSELF I WANT TO DIE!" I screamed, yoongi and jin grabbed a medical kit, my eyes were going blurry, I could see jimin crying, namjoon try to resist from crying, hoseok held onto my hand, taehyung and jungkook were sobbing and hugging eachother.

Is this my fault...? There feeling pain beacuse of me...

Okay that was the first chapter it probley was shit I'm working on my punctuation right now I might work on characters in a while but I feel a bit good I did more more words than I'm used to! Word count: 922