Raising His Baby

Family Time

The rest of the afternoon consisted of us playing with Jae. I decided to go make dinner and left Jae with his dad. While I cooked I watched them play and I couldn't stop the smile on my face. "Smells good. What are you making us?" He peeked over my shoulder and into the pot. "Mmmm kimchi stew. I'll go set the table." Before I could say anything he ran off with Jae to set the table. I brought the food out and he stared with wide eyes. "I missed your cooking so much I can't wait to eat it all!" I laughed as he began to scarf down the hot soup. All you could hear was him eating as fast as he could. "Calm down Jinyoung there's plenty." He smiled and shoved some rice in his already full mouth. "Do you want to give Jae a bath tonight?" He nodded and almost choked when he tried to speak. "Yes please. Sorry it's just so delicious." I smiled and began to eat.

After dinner I helped him bathe Jae and let Jinyoung pick out his pajamas. He was so careful and kept asking if he was doing it right. I reassured him and let him put Jae to sleep. "Now that our little prince is asleep do you want to watch a movie?" I nodded and ran to my room to change into my pjs. "Hurry and pick for us I'll be right out." I heard him say yes and changed into the first set I saw. When I walked out to the living room Jinyoung had his back facing me and he was in his boxers and a plain white shirt. I smiled when I saw him put in Harry Potter. It's one of our favorite movies and we used to watch it all the time. I sat next to him on the sofa and over time got closer. About halfway through the movie I snuggled up next to him and I felt him stiffen a bit. He draped an arm around me and pulled me a little closer. I felt so warm next to him and it brought back so many good memories. I felt at peace and being here with him next to me felt right. I looked over to see him watching the movie and stared at him for a second. I missed him so much and I felt so terrible for enjoying this when Joey and I broke up only a few hours earlier. He made being with him so easy. The only thing hard was his fans and how they'd react. Joey made things difficult sometimes, and although people wouldn't care if we were dating it would still be an issue for Jinyoung's fans. Joey also wouldn't want me to have any kind of relationship with Jinyoung because of our past. I can't keep him and Jae apart any longer and part of me knows I will always want Jinyoung.

I felt arms around me and could smell my favorite cologne. I know were now laying on the couch. I don't care, I just want to stay wrapped in his arm. I could still hear the movie in the background so I must have fallen asleep. I snuggled closer to him and felt him tighten his hold on me. "Jagi, I missed you so much. Please don't leave me again. I want us to raise Jae together and be a family. I don't care what anyone thinks or says I just want the both of you. You have no idea how happy I was when I saw you again. You're still so beautiful and I love you so much." My heart started racing when I heard him say that. I was even happier when I felt him plant a soft kiss on my forehead. I put my arm around him and nuzzled my face in the crook of his neck. "Jagi you're really testing me aren't you? You know how I get when you do this to me. I'll be a good boy though, we're not ready to give Jae a sister." I almost sat up when he said that, but I relaxed when I heard him chuckle. I fell back asleep in his arms and drifted off to dreamland.

I could feel the sun on my back so I sat up and stretched. It was 8am and completely quiet in my house. I panicked and ran out of my room to look for Jinyoung and Jae. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw them on the sofa. "Good morning, did you sleep well?" I nodded and reached for Jae to feed him. "He's probably hungry let me feed him." He smiled and passed Jae to me. I tried to feed him but Jae wouldn't latch on. I was getting aggravated because I was so full but Jae didn't want to eat. "Maybe he's not hungry" Jinyoung walked over and took Jae from my arms. I was about to snap at him but I stopped myself. "I'm gonna go pump in my room I'll be out in a bit." He nodded and walked away with Jae. I felt a little left out but ignored it and went to my room. After pumping I felt a little better but I was still on edge. "Feel better?" Jinyoung asked with a raised brow and I nodded in response. He huffed knowing I wasn't being completely honest. We spent the day inside and Jinyoung kept his distance and basically did everything. Jae began to get fussy so I tried to feed him but he didn't want to latch on. "Maybe he can't get any milk out." I ignored Jinyoung's comment and continued to try to feed him. Jinyoung went to the kitchen and came back with a bottle full of breast milk. I was stunned when Jae started to drink from the bottle. "How did you know to do that?" Jinyoung smiled and continued to feed Jae. "I was reading online and a lot of people recommend to stop breast feeding at six months. You can still pump though." I smiled still stunned and watched Jae eat. "Why did you look that up specifically?" His face got red and he looked away. "I looked up other things too not just that. I promise." I handed Jae over to him and let him watch Jae for the rest of the day. Night came too fast and I felt so relaxed from letting him handle Jae all day.