01/26/18
7:15
Hi.
I've been having mixed emotions recently. It's probably because of my period but half of it is something else.
I tend to make myself sad by reading depressive poem, I don't really know why I keep making myself sad. Maybe because I find it satisfying? and I could like relate to some of the lines? and it helps me to stay positive? Because I'm not the only one who feels that way. There are times when I felt lonely, I felt like everyone was against me and I'm just by myself and have no one else to depend on? Everyone tells me to open up to them, but I can't bring myself to open up because I can't trust them. I feel like they won't understand me. I can't trust anyone. It won't change anything. So i'd rather keep it all to myself. I'm the only one I can trust.
How can I open up when I don't even understand what's going through my mind? There are a lot of things going through my mind and I don't know where to start. I'd rather not tell anyone about it because I don't want them to be involved in my own messed up mind.
