My life so far.

There's this feeling I have. A faint, terrifying feeling. Wait...let me start from the begining. In March or 2017 I fell in love with a strange boy who was kind and gental. We shared a love into the summer but it didn't last...My mom didn't approve of me and that strange boy,she told me he could hurt me...now I only wish I had listened to her. I'm a sophmore now and still regretting living him or even knowing him....
It hurts. This pain he caused me wasn't like a physical pain. No it was deep and unforgiving. He's suicidal..but that's a lie, he just used that to try and win me back but I was already broken by him. You see I hate being bear him but he comforts me so much....
He cursed me out today. Called me a slut. How fitting for him to say those words when two days before he told me it wasn't my fault for breaking up with him. I have trust issues...I've been abandoned,alone,and unhappy...until now. I have found someone. And he lives me for all my weird and crazy ideas and actions. He doesn't judge me, he listens, and he stays loyal. He lives me despite my past mistakes and we take things a step at a time.
Thanks for listening...