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***** PROLOGUE.....*****
Breathing heavily I grasped the door knob firmly. I couldn't let go off the cold metallic door. I feared the worst. This is what I always feared and opening that door meant I was going to have to face what I feared most; was he cheating? Or was he not?
I looked him in the eye hoping for him to dissuade me from going in.
"Jamie you don't wanna do this." he spoke in a very calm manner as an evil smirk crept upon his face. If he was calm then............... Maybe... Just maybe he was not cheating. Why would he? We had been through all kinds of suffocating times together; I had cheated............. He had cheated.......we were even! no one had any backup excuse or reason for having any affair outside the relationship. If any of us did cheat then it was because we wanted to. I had been having an affair with this guy called Daniel Sullivan. He was basically my friends with benefits. When things went rough and edgy with Jake, Danny would be right there to clean my tears and when I am done crying, he'd grab me with passion and kiss me like I'd never been kissed before. And we'd talk and talk till I fell asleep Then he'd carry me and take me home and make sure I was safe; I wouldn't say I loved him.... But he was definitely the perfect guy under my sleeve at the moment. Then there was Adam Stone. He was my school crush. We had been going at it for a while. He was as complicated as him surname; he didn't want a relationship...... He didn't believe in love, he was literally married to his friends and he wanted to take things slow. Problem here is that I am not the "take things slow" girl. We are either making out anytime we are alone or we remain friends but i wanted something new.... Something different and Adam was the perfect bait! We had been "talking" for close to 3 months..... And I was gonna have Sat classes together from September to November ........ So he was just some standby lamp. If all lights went off he was going to have to light my love life again.
" I want to...... Who is in there?" I yelled with stones in my voice. He was silent...... He looked at me then he held my hands which still held on tightly to the door knob. I began to feel my palms get wet. " You are nervous Jamie... Just stop making this hard on yourself.", he spoke but with a smirk on his face this time." "YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY? I am begi- " i yelled trying to keep my cool then he grabbed me, pushed me against the thick yellow wall and pressed his lips against mine. He kissed me on the lips so aggressively like he had missed something, like he had been longing for me for a long time. Then he got to my neck and phased into a cool gentleman. Kiss by kiss he kissed my neck and kept coming up, then upon getting to my ear, he whispered, "What were you saying again?"..............................
*End of prologue*
CHAPTER 1. (The revelation)
I could hear the tiny pellets hitting hard against my window sill. I loved the aftersmell of rain..... It was pleasing.... It was all surreal ..... It made everything seem perfect before I heard my mom bellowed " JAZMINE ELIZABETH DAMIYE! Get off that bed and come down this minute!" Yup! This is my life. I am a 17 year old dainty teenager who lives a surreptitious life with my 32 year old mom . We had been living a cloak-and-dagger life and I was getting sick of it! I had to live 3 different lives on a daily basis; One with all the boys I had affairs with, another in school and the last but tiresome one of all with my mom. My mom was really finding it difficult to make ends meet. Her husband, my dad died in a car crash when I was just 7. I still remember him although my memory of him was faint; he wasn't exactly the best father so him leaving us did us some good.
I got off the bed...... Sluggishly and annoyed. I knew why she was calling me. It was obviously because I came home this morning...... ; I barely had any sleep and here she was destroying every ounce of it that I had left in me. I hitched across the room making my mom open her eyes in awe.
