Untitled thoughts

Untitled Thoughts 1

I was feeling really inspired and poetic, so i decided to finally make a wattpad user and write something here. But as soon as I got into this screen, I feel like my mind just went "..."

Everything went black and no matter what I wrote it just didn't feel good and I ended up deleting it. So then it got to me: What if, instead of trying to write about a forced thought, I'd just write about whatever comes into my mind.

So

here it is

this is gonna be a mess and I have a hard time imagining anyone reading this

so I'm probably never gonna publish this

but uhh

how are you

how was your day

did you feel loved today

I hope you did

I feel like my days are becoming longer and longer

every day getting up from the bed feels harder

every day reading the hundreds of messages I got during the night feels more useless

every day

life feels like hell

But I still get up

I still read the messages and answer to them

And I smile

I've fake smiled so much I don't know whats my real smile and what's not

idk