Dream You || Up10tion

After tonight, it feels like you'll come back and smile

i.

 It's only been a couple of days since we broke up
But I can see you even clearer
As if you're right next to me

Wooshin sat up on his bed, in his house, with his parents. It was 2:30 a.m. and he can't sleep again. He kept thinking he was with the other guys, and that they had a schedule to prepare for. 

How can I forget you? How can I erase you?
After tonight, it feels like you'll come back and smile
It's that kind of night

Coincidentally Jinhoo was also not sleeping, just a couple of miles away on the same dark night. He would never admit it, but his thoughts were restless.  Searching for something, someone in his cold, lonely room.

He looked over at the other, perfectly made bed. And let his thoughts wander off again.

ii.

The sky is so blue today, it's making things harder
All sorts of memories with you
Beautiful recollections torture me
It's harder today

When they had to practice for Runner a couple days later, Bitto was completely out of it. He snapped at every little detail they missed and stormed out of the room when Minsoo bit back at him for missing a step himself. 

The practice room felt different, even though everything was still the exact same. It felt cold and tense. Maybe it was only because it was missing one more smiling face.

I'm sure you're doing well
I'm sure you forgot everything
But I'm still trapped in that time
I know, I'm regretting this too late
Tears fall without knowing

A whole month has passed since Wooshin moved out of the dorm. He told them not to call or text him, said it would only hurt him (and them) more. Sunyoul has been staring at his reflection on his mobile phone for a while now.

Contemplating whether it would be worth it to hurt himself even more. His eyes start tearing up, Sunyoul closes them and takes a deep breath. He has cried enough already, he says to himself. 

iii.

The clock ticking gets louder and I can't fall asleep
You torture me
I try laying on my stomach, I try closing my eyes
But you keep appearing, I think I've gone crazy

Hwanhee shoots up from his bed. Shaky breathes fill the room as he looks at Xiao beside him, he was still sleeping. He notices the dried up tears on his cheeks and on the gray pillow beneath his head. 

Turning away, Hwanhee remembers his dream.

He had just managed to fall asleep at 3 a.m. But the moment he closed his eyes, He seemed to regret ever trying to sleep. 

He had found Wooshin in the bathroom, dark red against pale white.

I knew this would happen
I regret it, I should've held onto you
I try to turn things back, I try
But I know it's too late now