Tear of Happiness

I'm as nowhere as I can be,

Could you please add some somewhere to me.

-Avett Brothers

// My first attempt to write something, hope you all will like this short story. //

I am sitting on her bed crossing my legs and she in front of me in same position looking at me.
"Bring your harmonium." I told her pointing towards corner.
"Why?" She asked me folding her hands around her chest.
I got up from bed and walked towards the corner where her precious harmonium sleeping from year. I picked up red cloth sitting on top of it and rusted the dust using same cloth.
I picked up that harmonium and placed it in front of her.

"Wow, you are going to play this." She said excitedly clapping her hands.

"No I am not you are going to play this. I don't  even know how to play this." I said then I placed that harmonium facing her.
Her face turned pale and she started swaying her head both side saying no.

I placed my hands on her shoulder and squeeze them with hope and said, "Believe in yourself."

That was stupid to say at that time because it made her cry. She started crying which made my heart hurt. It was like her every tear is thorn which is piercing my heart repeatedly.
I sat beside her and circle my arms around her. She droped her head into my chest and embrace my body with her arms. She held me tightly and started shading infinite tears.
I stroke her head and back continuously.
"Look at me Tanvi."
"Please look at me." I said to her and pulled her from my hug.
She tilted her head towards me.
Her eyes was filled with tears. I brushed out her tears through my thumbs and held her face in my palms. Her eyes were begging for help.

"Annirudh is died two years ago. But behaving like this you are killing his soul every second."

"You told me he was your confidence. But why you always mention him as was because he is still your confidence. He never wanted you to kill your passion like this."
Her eyes looking at me with hope which soothes my heart little bit.

"If you had stopped believe in yourself but please don't stop believing Annirudh because I know he is still watching you through everything around you. And you know where he stays most?"

"Where?" She said wiping her tears using her back of her hands which made me smile.
"Your music. He is in your every single word. Your every song is home to him. And currently you are not living your passion so he is homeless right now. So take deep breathe start playing this and give him his home back."

I stopped now because I don't know what to say ahead. I just kissed her on forehead and hugged tightly.
She stay into my arms I don't remember how much time. But I know it was long enough. Long enough to feel something for her.
When we get out of that hug she place her palm on my chick. And that moment made some changes into my body. When she came close to me, my breathing stopped for first time. And when her lips touched my chick first time my heart trembled. My heart felt brightness for first time.

Through her gesture she was only saying thank you but my heart was responding weirdly.
When that moment ended, she shifted towards harmonium and placed her fingers on it like she want to get mingle with every key. I was observing her every little move carefully.

We both were silent into our own world. She was gulping up courage to embrace her passion and I was gulping up courage to stop my heart from beating this fast. Right now everything is unstable inside me and only one stable thing I am seeing was her.
"What do you see in those keys?" I asked her pointing towards the harmonium which is placed in front of us.
"Huhhh." the only thing came out of her mouth and she abruptly moved her head towards me. Her eyes blankly looked at me which told me I have to repeat my question.
"What do you see in those keys?" I asked her again.
She gasped some air by opening her mouth little and closed it immediately. Then moved her gaze towards keys and placed her fingers on them. All this things happened in seconds but I felt them like hours happening in slow-motion.

"I can see whole world and its happiness is folded with every single key." This came out from her mouth. Her answer made everything stopped around me. Only my and her eyes moving. Her around keys and mine around her.

"What do you feel when you play it?" that was next question which came through my mouth.

"It feel like when I press every key, all stored happiness is unfolded and melody of emotions is spread in whole world." She answered but never looked towards me.

Melody that word she said which started echoing in my head. I felt small under her words. It's like I am feeling everything newly. Feeling music in new way because it was through her, not through me. Irony was, it is felt best to feeling it through her.

"Play." I said it like order to her.

Now she looked at me and smiled little. I smiled back. She pressed first key and that was first melody I heard which played by her. She started shading tears but this time they were tears of happiness. I didn't brush her tears because it felt like her tears of happiness were dancing with every music beat.

She was continuously playing it for one or two hours we don't know. She was talking with me through her melodies. I just put my head inside her neck kissed it lightly and shade my first tear of happiness to tell her I am still and always beside her.