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I've been dating Jungkook for the past three years, we've been great until just a few weeks ago.
He's started getting distant,
We havent been cuddling as much as before, he doesnt say he loves me first-or as much as before, we don't go out together anymore, he comes home later than normal, just to add on to my suspicions, I've found women's underwear in multiple places of the house, and I assure you its not mine.
By this point Im sure he's doing what im thinking, theres no other explanation.
I keep telling myself to leave, to just pack my things and stop wasting my time on loving someone who clearly, doesn't love me anymore.
But to be honest I can't bring myself to do it, I cant help but think that maybe he'll stop, maybe he does love me, maybe im just over thinking and he's not actually cheating.
But then I remember that the last one is just me, trying convince myself of something that isnt true.
So that is why im here packing my bag, finally being able to suck it up, and leave, never speak to him again.
I know what you might be thinking, 'why havent you confronted him, at least to make sure, before you break up a three year relationship with someone you clearly love' but If I did actually do that, I knew that I still wouldn't leave him, even if it was true, I wouldn't be able to resist him if he tried to get me to forgive him.
Also why Im doing this when he isn't home, so I have nothing to hold me back.
Im going to live with my best friend, Hoseok, he said he would let me stay with him for the time being, until I can find a place, since I haven't really looked yet.
As I finished zipping up my last bag, I threw it on my shoulder and grabbed my suitcase.
I grabbed my house keys but quickly put them back down, remembering that I wouldn't need them anymore.
I looked at the clock and realised that I should have gotten ready earlier, Hoseok had work soon and wouldn't have anyone to let me into his house.
So I quickly ran out to my car, put my bags in the trunk and drove off to my new temporary home.
"Im sorry" I whispered, a tear slipping past my eye.
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Jungkook came home a few hours after you left, he walked through the door, took of his shoes and set down his keys.
He walked to the kitchen and grabbed a drink from the fridge, as soon as he opened his drink he noticed how quiet it was.
"Babe?... you home?" He called out to the empty house, he looked in the livingroom, the bathroom, even the bedroom, but you werent there.
'Thats weird, she doesnt really go out much, I wonder where she is' he thought, he took off his shirt and pants and threw them in the laundry basket, he walked over to their shared closet and noticed that only his clothes where there.
"..what?" He whispered to himslef, he backed up a bit and tried to panic, 'maybe theres an explanatiom for her clothes being gone' he thought, he quickly looked through her drawers next to her side of the bed...empty.
"Whats happening" he looked around and couldn't find anything of hers, except her keys.
"No.." he said, not believing what was actually happening, his vision got blurry and thats when he started to panic.
He ran back to the kitchen to get his phone, he called her one, two, ten times, but no answer, it wasnt even ringing.
"Baby, where are you? Why did you leave me? What did I do?" He whispered, then he realised...could she have found out?
"Oh my god, no please" he whimpered, "im so sorry, please come back, I-" he got caught off by a sob, he couldn't believe it, he never thought she would find out, he thought he did a good job covering it up, he regrets it so much, he's broken her heart, right after he broke it off with the girl.
He felt a heavy weight on his chest, like he couldnt breath right anymore, tears were flowing down his face so fast, how could he? She's the love of his life.
He called a few more times, but still the same noise telling his that the call has ended, so he called her parents, she could be there right? Where else woukd she be, but even they didnt answer.
He sat down, not knowing what to do anymore, so he grabbed his keys, and left the house, got in his car and started driving.
On his car ride he stared thinking, why did he cheat? Why did he do all of that when he regrets it so much, when he loves her so much, he doesnt really know anymore,
But what he does know is that he wont let her go that easily.
