Amnesia|| Luke Hemmings (complete)

Even if the skies get rough

I Won't Give Up~ Jason Miraz

Luke's P.o.v 

~2 months ago~

Another day in L.A, another model throwing herself at me.. This time she actually kissed me. It went viral i swear and Stacey left us for a little break. I'm a dick. I ruined any chances i had with her. Fuck! Why am i suck a failure? I really want to know that answer i fail everyone and everyone hates me. I run into our L.A house bathroom and slam the door locking it. Sliding down the wall as the song "I won't give up" plays which sends me into hysterics

"I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up, still looking up."

I need her. I need Stacey back but she's gone and this time I don't think she will come back.

Another song comes on

"Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start."

Nobody said heartbreak would last this long or hurt this much but why does it? I wish i could go back to when it all started and these stupid mistakes i made wouldn't exist.

I grab the one thing I need right now.. my razor

Slice after slice on my left wrist getting deeper as i go along.

"Luke! Are you in there!" I hear Calum yell at the door. I ignore him and continue ruining my left wrist. I cry out as one gets deeper. " Luke i know you are in there! Please open the door. I just want to help." Calum pleads he knows what i am doing and i can hear him crying. "You can't help me Calum! No one can." I shout. "Yes i can Luke! All us boys we can help you if you let us!" He shouts back. "It's too late Calum. I have fucked up way too much in this life i just want out!" I scream breaking down in tears again as i slice deeper and deeper. I hear Calum desperately call for the other boys and them trying to break the door down. "Luke please open the door!" I hear Ashton cry out. "Please Luke!" Michael begs me but I'm too weak to get to the door. I have been bleeding too much. My eye sight starts fading as the boys reach me. I can see tears running down all of their faces as they see me in my state. Michael grabs a towel and wraps it around my arm cleaning the blood of then Ashton comes and wraps a bandage around my wrist. I turn to look at Calum his facial expressions are unreadable as he stands at the door tears streaking his face. Ashton picks me up and carries me to mine and Calum's room placing me on my bed. I still feel really weak.

~The next day~

"Luke's hurting so bad Ashton all because of Stacey!" Calum cries. "Hey Cal it's okay they are both hurting not just Luke! Stacey had to leave because of his." Ashton stands up for Stace. "IT'S STACEY'S FAULT LUKE IS THIS BAD!" "LUKE STARTED ALL THIS MESS CALUM! HE WAS THE ONE WHO FUCKING KISSED ANOTHER GIRL!" Ashton yells back. "OKAY ENOUGH! We will go downstairs away from Luke for you two to fight!" Michael half yells half speaks. As soon as i hear my door shut i run into the bathroom. "Luke! Luke Get out of the bathroom now." I hear Calum yell as i break down on the floor. "Is... is it just you?" I ask Calum. "Yes. It is but please let me in." He sighs i can tell he's crying again. I crawl to the door unlocking and sliding back to my original place with a cold razor in my hand hiding so he can't see it. "Luke.. Please talk to me i can help." Calum says standing at the door. "NO YOU CAN'T ONLY STACEY CAN HELP ME!" I yell at him before continuing "I HAVE FUCKED UP WAY TOO MUCH FOR HER TO EVER TAKE ME BACK. SHE FUCKING HATES ME NOW CAL!" I shout he tells me to be quite and comes over to support me as i break down for the hundredth time this week.

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Edited (23/12/14)