"Lost along the way I'd given up my fight, Scattered to pieces all along the floor, within the brokenness I found something more" - Anna Micane. Anna Micane the singer of this song, and most of her music has touched me deeply because it has helped me through the times I've needed it the most. This song is the one to help me most through my mess of a life, with the reminder that you will or are find(ing) yourself through the tough and the easy times. Music is one of the main things that defines my culture it ties my family, friends, my youth group,and more together. This song has had the most impact on my life.
The way the song describes my family is, We all have a place and know it. We bring each other up and were positive; Until the day my parents came home screaming, and it continued day in day out. When they were home that is. I remember one time, I was making dinner for my siblings to help out my older sister who has been watching us scenes about 3 pm and my older sister came in and started talking to me about something small and it ended with us in a screaming fight over the smallest thing. Me and her were always at each others necks. I went to my room after and listening to song after song to calm myself down alone in my room remembering that I had to go to school in the morning and hide all of what was happening. Another memory I have is the day my dad had told us he was moving out and was going to try and fix things with my mom. He didn't have to say anything; I knew it was over. I learned fast to be strong not let small things bother you and to lean on ones who are close and tresure what you have, not what you lost.
Along with my family, my friends have shaped me have been there and taught me that never should you fully give up. You should go crazy, let yourself goof off, there will always be someone there to catch you if you fall. A good example is my friend patrick he's very strong and doesn't let things get to him very easily. I remember one time I was on the phone with him and he had caught me in a time when I happen to be upset and crying, he wouldn't let me not tell him what was wrong I tried to say it was nothing and he insisted it was important to him even if it wasn't to me. He wanted to help me through it and wouldn't take no as an answer. He taught me that there are good people and you can trust just not easily. Another friend is rosie, she is one of my oldest friends I have countless memories with her but the most important one was when we were hanging out and she just started bringing up the most random things and was calm and herself. She taught me its ok to be yourself that it doesn't matter who likes you or not. I could go on forever about my amazing friends but i think the last one has to be phillup he's been through kinda what I am going through a good back support a rock. I remember one time we were sitting at youth group and I was free to just break down and cry he listened to it all no matter how stupid then talked to me and told me to keep going and reminded me when I was down. Those three friends have had the biggest impact and like it says I gave up my fight but they didn't they fought my fight when I couldn't and they wouldn't let me fall.
Lastly is my youth group, It has shaped me with how I act to people I remember the first night I went, it was like I had entered a new part of the world with everyone saying "hi" with happy faces and not just fake smiles but genuine I'm glad you're here and I want you to be here. It was as if I've found a place to calm down to be myself. A place to escape from the rest of my life. The pain the brokenness and more. The youth group is the "They remind me of what is real" line of the song. And they do and they help how I treat people outside of the youth group. They remind me how you will always have a comfort spot no matter what life throws at you. Also that someone is watching over you. Even if you feel all alone and broken you will get thro it. It's not the end yet keep fighting and believing. The music we listen to there follows me brings me peace and encourages me to be the best I can.
"I found myself in a sea of busy places, in a world of blurry faces." (Anna Clendening) In all of this insanity of life I found me, I found my culture through my friends, my family, my youth and of course, my main pull together music, my protector my mask my life. Music ties my life and culture together because it runs through all of my life and all my actions, words, thoughts, friends, family, Relighion and me."I found myself, on the edge of insanity, I found, I found me" (Anna Clendening)
