Please Forget About Me

Please

Ilang araw na din ang lumipas since me and Katrina broke up. Hindi naman talaga naging kami kaya I didn't consider it as a breakup. It was a non labeled relationship afterall,kung saan kapag di na masaya ang isa,lalamunin na ng kalungkutan ang isa. In our case it's my fault, I knew I took her for granted. She was just so sweet to me and I thought I can learn to love her,but I was wrong.

"You okay bud?"sabi ni Freed,roomate ko. I nodded at him and sip the coffee which he have given awhile ago. I must have spaced out again,everytime I think of Katrina I always feel bad. If only I can turn back time, I would prevent the day we've met.

"Oh siya pasok na ko, ikaw na bahala dito ah wala ka namang pasok at wala namang kayong date ni--"di niya natuloy yung sasabihin niya dahil agad akong napalingon sa kaniya. I know he didnt mean it but still I can't help myself na magalit. He make a peace sign gesture through his fingers and quickly run towards the door.

I heaved a sigh and put all the used cups and plates in our sink and head towards my bed. Ilang araw na ba akong ganito, I really felt bad after that break up. Not that I like her again but ,her pleading face begging me not to go keeps on rewinding inside my brain, it haunts me and I hate it. Hindi ko intensyong saktan siya. I hated people who hurt women but here I am I've successfully broke a woman's heart. Great Reizo just Great! I look at the wall clock inside the room and it's still early so I decided to take another nap.

"Reizo, may klase ka ng 4:30 diba, mag aalas kwatro na gising na"Narinig kong pagtawag sakin ni Freed sa labas. Napabalikwas naman ako ng bangon and before I knew it ,I fell on the cold floor face first. Geez grabe makakatok akala mo nagpakamatay na ko dito sa kaOA ng katok niya.

"I'm not going!"I said and slowly stand up, ansakit ng ilong ko. I look at the calendar inside the room and the date today was encircled with a red marker. So it has been four months already huh, since we've first met.

"Dude, it's your fave class"sigaw ni Freed mula sa labas.Favorite class? Ahh As I recall it was 21st century literature. Ang tanging klase na kasama ko si Katrina. I wonder if she's okay now, it has been 15 days to be exact after our lovestory ended,even though it didn't started in the first place. I quickly put my binder inside my sling bag and run towards our school. I didn't bother to say goodbye to Freed, I never do that stuff. The school I study is not so far from the apartment that I rent on.So I didn't have trouble at time like this.

I reached my classroom in just a nick of time. The professor was just about to begin the class. I smiled shyly towards our professor and quickly sat on my seat. Pwede ko namang hindi pasukan ang subject na ito dahil minor lang ito,but here I am wasting two hours of my life to listen to the literature of the 21st century.The professor started to start with her discussion while I started to roam my gaze inside the classroom,hoping I could see Katrina and how does she do. My hopes didn't failed me cause I saw her looking intently in front with her usual smile plastered on her face. I'm glad she is okay. Mabuti naman at okay siya. All of my regrets were worn off and all of my burden was suddenly lifted. Masaya ako at okay na siya.

The two hours of class was completely boring. I tried my best not to look bored because it would be rude,but I can't help it there's nothing interesting in the literature of the 21st century. As soon as the clock hit the 6:30 mark I rose up from my seat and marched towards the door. No one bothered to call my name cause I'm just an irregular student in their class.She could have called me but I know she wont and that's good ,but I was wrong she was already outside waiting for me holding her sling bag at her left arm and an alluring smile was plastered in her face. Why did I hurt this girl?

"Hey, kanina pa kita iniintay you were too pre occupied na di mo napansin na early dismissal ang ginawa ni Mam"She said while smiling at me. I smile at her too but the awkward one, ano bang ginagawa niya dito?I mean why is she still talking to me.
Hindi ba sinaktan ko siya, I've already ended our so called relationship. Nakalimutan na ba agad niya yon?

"Reizo.."she said, and at that moment I knew she was on the verge of crying. Yumuko ito at tinakpan niya ang kaniyang mukha. Gone was her smile , bakit niya ba kasi pinagpipilitan ang sarili niya sakin. I was about to walk past her but she immediately grab my wrist.

"P-Please, b-bumalik na l-lang tayo sa dati" sabi nito, her tears were visible and I couldn't help myself but to pity her. Pero kung aaluin ko siya baka mas masaktan ko pa siya lalo. Things should have not ended like this.

"You know we can't , tama na Katrina, sinasaktan mo na lang ang sarili mo" I said and look at the opposite direction, her sobs grew louder and we are already gathering too much attention. I wanted to hug her but I know that will only make things worst. I slowly remove her hand on me and walk away, like I always do. I left her with tears on her face , I didn't bother to look back because I want her to hate me, I want her to curse me, I want her to forget about me.