If someone asks we're just friends(Connor Franta fanfic)

Can you recognize me?

When you find passion,you don't let it go.Sure,we can't live without love,but when you have someone who's touch can make you shiver and who's kiss can make you moan-you do not let it go.Especially when they're weak when it comes to you.You can make them do anything,be your little doll,but they don't know one thing-you feel like a doll when your with them.

It was morning.Mike and I just couldn't sleep.We couldn't stop wanting eachother.I was sitting in his lap facing him,kissing him softly,my hair covering half my face.

-Why am I so weak when your with me? You know I used to be the Hollywood's bad boy.Who guessed that you can be my only weakness.-Mike said

-What can I say?I have a gift.

-Tonight is the masquerade,you know that?

-Masquerade?

-Yeah,Connor's proposal party,it's a masquerade.Can't wait to see you in those clothes.Your always in shorts or pants-not that I don't like it.

-Well you can't see me that quickly.You have to find me first.

-Ohh,so that's what you do,ha?Well,when I do find you I'll do this-he pushed our bodies together,grabbing me kissing my neck softly making me shiver.

Only he knows how to do that.To make me want someone so bad.But,I couldn't help but think about tonight-a masquerade?Connor did this on purpose,so he can find me before Mike and try to talk to me.Knowing him,he wants to know if he did the right thing.

-Come on,I'll call somebody to get our costumes,I'll leave from work and we'll find eachother.

-Ohhh do you have to go now for work?

-Come on-he took his guitar-I was writing this song for you,your next hit,try to sing it.

I took the peace of paper and started singing it.It was about me.How he loved me for a really long time,from the first time he saw me.I couldn't breath.I knew he loved me but never this much he never expressed this. I'm afraid to hurt him,not on purpose.Hours passed,he left and I was alone when my costume came.The traditional huge dress,it was red,but not the ugly red the perfect red and the mask was black.With my grey hair this will go perfect.I did my hair and put it on.For some reason the mask was practically me.I didn't feel any different,I always have a mask on,pretending, never saying a word about how I feel.I left.These huge buildings were becoming my life since I came here.The paparazzi were going crazy trying to find out who is who but thank God they didn't recognize me I can't listen to more ridiculous questions about Connor.Going in I instantly found Amber,I mean who else is a big of a slut to wear the shortest dress ever made?I guess she didn't get the theme right. I was looking for Mike trough the crowd,my desire raising.Somebody gave me a note to go to this room that was really hard to find and really dark.I found it and went in.I heard a door lock behind me,my desire growing.

-You know,I always imagined you in a wedding dress ,standing infront of me.

-Connor,STOP!STOP IT ALREADY!Clear your mind already what do you want to do.You can't marry Amber and see me.That's not how it works.

-I'm making my choise.It's two days untill the wedding we're not having a big one that's why it's so fast.Please,I need to know I'm doing the right thing here.

-The second you made the decision to choose her over me,you made up your mind.

I unlocked the door and went out.I couldn't breathe,I felt like somebody was strangling me.What we went trough,nobody did.Car accidents,hiding,fires,boarding school.I can't just throw it all away.He was the only family I had.And Mike is my guilty pleasure,nobody makes me feel like he does,nobody can fulfill my desires like him.I was going trough the main room trying to find Mike and at one point I heard

-Looking for someone?-

I wanted to get away with him,go somewhere where no-one could find us.But when I wanted to grab his hand and go,Connor got the microphone and started a speech. On purpose Mike and I went up to the front row and he put his hand around my hip.Then Connor started to talk:

I'm really glad that everyone found time to come to our party and clebrate our love.The wedding is in two days and it's really intimate.I would be happy if you can celebrate our love with us.Thank you.

He said turning to Amber kissing her.Excuse me while I go puke,be back in a sec.