Diary of a Sad Black Girl

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January 29th

Sometimes it's hard to believe him when he says he loves me. We're still dating and everything but little things he does are different from when he first told me he loved me. Maybe I'm just overthinking things. Maybe I'm just too stressed out and I'm imagining things. Maybe. I don't know anymore. I'm afraid I'm putting my all into something that he no longer wants but it's probably just me being all emotional. I'm always emotional. But I can't help it. It's hard to believe the things someone says when they keep telling their ex they love them. I honestly feel like giving up and telling them both they win. They can have each other and I'll disappear but I can't. Probably because I'm too stupid and I've gotten used to being hurt that I expect it because it's not like this is the first time this is happening but when that happened we weren't together. He would just act like we were so that his friends would accept me. I don't want acception. I don't want less then what I am giving.

I wish she hadn't came back into his life.