Lying all over the bed
A lot of things pop in my head.
Why I'm so lonely. Unanswered texts
Unseen zest whispers, and I am not deaf.
I am that guy until someone shows up
More interesting. Second later I'm second.
From the back when a glowing face comes to exposure behind fake smile I descend.
Free treats can buy me an hour. Not a friend.
Sweet talks are just for cowards. And I am scared to death.
I know I am kinda weird and my hair is messy.
I see big dreams but too unconventional for embracing.
Every day I see you passing by in a condescending tone.
While I inhale deep and go into a contemplating zone.
Like the other person you are also looking for betterment.
But I'm too weak to flex, buying my own apartment.
Hot guys rules your word, I didn't have degrees.
Dropped out of the college and my future decreased
Into a tiny hole, I am tired searching for the key
To open up a new door. Hands of family never reached
For me. I was left to crawl on the floor.
My father says don't stress, why don't you open up a store
Every one is doing good. There's money in it. NO!!!
Forced to live inside a box. Crushed from the core.
Dad I don't I want to wear the same clothes like you.
I can't live like a iteration of a social programs.
Imitation of youth. Don't intimate with your abuse
Of words. I just wanna edit my portrait in different hues.
Maybe I will not have a beautiful wife, a car to drive.
I'm alright with it because we can't have everything in life.
