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RAIN .....

A/N

THIS Is ONLY A SHORT OPENING OF A STORY I MAY OR MAY NOT CARRY ON..

READ IF YOU WISH TO. 

IGNORE IF YOU WISH TO DO SO. 

ANNND......

THATS ALL I CAN SAY LOOOOL 

DO AS YOU PLEASE MY LOVELIES THIS MAY NOT BE AMAAAAZING OR EVEN GOOD SO.... IDK LMAOO 

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This was my story.

My hardships.

My life........

But was this all that I was destined for?

Being like this wasn't in my control, so why did it seem like I was at fault? why did it seem like I was to blame for, for their  death?

This evil passed down to me was something that should have been my miracle but rather it was something I hated myself for.

11th/09/1998....................

That was the date it all started.

That was the date  I started to become  a part  of the thing they called Bts....

Having another life living beside  me and not being aware for my own safety? That wasn't good enough for me! That wasn't the life that I asked for? But rather told I was a miracle well why didn't I feel like one?Why was I such I secret? Why was I a secret from myself?Why is it I could feel and hear everything inside me like it had been sitting  in the palm of my hand? I didn't know myself let alone explore  the world?

I saw and heard things that needed me dead but why was it so hard to die!!I wasn't able to kill my self after i knew the reason my parents died . I should have died too .why do I bring havoc with me where ever I go?

Why am I not able to die no matter how many people try?

All these "WHYS" and "IF ONLYS" haven't yet given me an answer on to  why I'm still alive after all that ive been through.

Was I a human? or, something out of the books?

Why wasn't I able to die?

Then came the truth...It flew into my life like leaves that fall onto the ground on an autumns day once so strong clenching onto the branches of the mighty full tree and now withered and weak  like the diseased ready to be forgotten....

Immortality isn't a blessing like you all think it is, its a curse.its something I wish I  was never born with.

My gift came with many things that would be forgotten as time went on but my life is frozen my life is worthless and something that you wouldn't expect it to be....

When you got asked in school what power you would want to have..

Flying?        

Read minds?

Walk through walls?

That's everything you would want but have you ever wished for just happiness?

Things like these are things we have always wanted but what about the things we need?

We need comfort,

Happiness,

 To be free...

(A/n I'm so listening to butterfly right now ahahahaaha)

Have the ones  in your life that care for you, dont lie to you....................

My parents ................

I wasnt given a name till i was on my death bed at 2 months old ..... It rained that day i could tell you that much, but even now at 19  i hear those same raindrops everytime my eyes close .There like  tears of god  that  come down as one army drenching  the ground unmercifully , rhythmically  creating music and harmony in its process....

Ji-u .... is  my name.

Y/N ji-u  is  my full name to be precise......... 

I never could understand why the name rain could hold so much value..

Rain...

Some see rain as something miraculous, others disastrous..

What was  i really?

A disaster?

Or  a miracle?

No.... That's your answer

My parents weren't the same as me... Quite unfortunate don't you think?

No.....That's your answer

If they had lived on it would have been harder to move on...My grandparents on the same hand, were  murdered like my parents were.. By who???

That's the question I ask my self every day!!Maybe its my fault? Agree with me and maybe I will accept this too.. There's no way out why does everyone think its so easy!!I'm alone in a room yet there's always somebody standing there infront of the mirror I stare at... It isntttt meeee how do I explain this to you that it  isn't me(sigh) , that, isn't just my reflection.

... Am I crazy to say it stares at me from the corner of its pitiful eyes  even when I look away?

Maybe I am crazy.....

MAYBE I SHOULD BE THE HUNTER AND NOT THE HUNTED......

Revenge......

 It isn't  said as easily as its done.

 Its something that Ide never believe in but maybe after centuries of frozen time this will be me being the flower that blooms once again. 

Maybe I was meant to be the army of rain drops....  

Maybe I can be the miraculous ji-u I was born as.........

A/N okay even I'm getting scared here da fuck phahahaha I apologise if this is boring AF 

Okieeee sorry this was sooooooo shortttttt ......

Love you guys so much  XXXX

Usually I'm the biggest perv alive  but we have to save that shit for later or never HAHAHAAHAHAH GOD KNOWS... 

Aaaaaaand if theres any mistakes then ill send an army of rain drops on ya if anyone decides to attack lmaoooooooo

jk jk...........

i think..........